So yeah, about christmas this year.....
I headed over to my mate's place for Christmas. And it was ok. though as soon as I got there I went to sleep. Slept on the couch recliner down stairs alone with the cats and dog. Its better than on the floor in my mate's room and being yelled at or prodded because I snore. Christmas day, (as that I got there just after midnight) I watched a lot of Doctor who, finishing up season 4 and all of 5 for the new series. Was fed by the roommate that owns the place. Got to snuggle with my mate pip while watching the show. Though that's all we did. I almost walked out at one point int he day because I went up to his room and was his with a wall of stench that overpowered me. I was hacking and catching my breath clearing out what I had walked into. Pip though I was insulting him and being mean. I was not int he mood for his "fuck you now I'm going to cry" attitude because of my reaction to being hit with the stench that was burning me. I kept trying to walk out, he grabbed me and told me to stop. we sat down and I tried to explain to him what happened, I still don't think he got it. He is in tears. I don't want more moodiness. I tell him lets go back down and watch more Dr. Who, he said he needs a smoke first. I say ok and head done. (not going to sit and be hurt by him being moody and smoking.) He comes back and sits with me, then takes off, then comes back, then takes off for a while. Pretty typical, but at least he listened when I said I don't want to come over and he says he's going to snuggle up but instead has other things to do. Tired of having the carrot dangled in front of me.
anyways we watch the shows, had great food. I was stuffed. Then late night early AM I go to sleep. Get called about 8 by my dad then mom, making sure I was ok. I get up and put together and head home. Get home, see stuff for me on my bed. 4 boxes of clothes, half of which I will most likely never wear, others I will and some I might. No place to put them right now. Got a dvd of season 1 of the new V series from my uncle, and a box with a watch, pen, calculator and led key chain light. A little office present thing that would be great if I worked in an office and was 50 or older. it was from my sister and her fiance.
So it wasn't a complete loss, but the gift of blue balls from my mate is most unwelcomed. I think that's going to be it for me for going over other than to make money or deliver stuff. Just tired of the run-around and broken promises and false implied ideas. That and having lots of money being bummed off of me. I'm emotionally burned out and drained. AT least though I got some nice things from family though. Some people didn't get anything or had all their gifts stolen like sohjin, really blows. But hey, your alive, with friends or family, in a home and fed. That's the most I really wanted for Christmas. Material things are just that. Many have great uses, others just for playing with or looking at and collecting dust. I love practical gifts and simple things. The clothes, a few, I can use and needed. Though of course, I don't need a special single day a year to give a gift to someone. Why should Christmas and a birthday be the only day anyone should get a gift. I give gifts to others all year long. a friend, family, loved ones, even strangers, I give a gift that they might like or could use, or maybe its something I don't need or want and know someone that would like to have it instead. I'm not an atheist though I'm more agnostic but have more general pagan views and such as far as any religion is concerned, but outside of the religion, outside of the commercialism of Christmas, what is important is the spirit of the season. Of the feelings we have for others and the world. Of the thought and ideas that we have come to accept for this time of year. The winter season is a time of togetherness, a time of ending and renewing. Remember what we have lost but also what we still have and have to look forward to. To make the best out of what is around us and to improve that which really needs and wants it.
Anyways, that's all I've got for now. Merry Christmas everyone, no matter what different name you use to distance your self from the name Christmas.
anyways we watch the shows, had great food. I was stuffed. Then late night early AM I go to sleep. Get called about 8 by my dad then mom, making sure I was ok. I get up and put together and head home. Get home, see stuff for me on my bed. 4 boxes of clothes, half of which I will most likely never wear, others I will and some I might. No place to put them right now. Got a dvd of season 1 of the new V series from my uncle, and a box with a watch, pen, calculator and led key chain light. A little office present thing that would be great if I worked in an office and was 50 or older. it was from my sister and her fiance.
So it wasn't a complete loss, but the gift of blue balls from my mate is most unwelcomed. I think that's going to be it for me for going over other than to make money or deliver stuff. Just tired of the run-around and broken promises and false implied ideas. That and having lots of money being bummed off of me. I'm emotionally burned out and drained. AT least though I got some nice things from family though. Some people didn't get anything or had all their gifts stolen like sohjin, really blows. But hey, your alive, with friends or family, in a home and fed. That's the most I really wanted for Christmas. Material things are just that. Many have great uses, others just for playing with or looking at and collecting dust. I love practical gifts and simple things. The clothes, a few, I can use and needed. Though of course, I don't need a special single day a year to give a gift to someone. Why should Christmas and a birthday be the only day anyone should get a gift. I give gifts to others all year long. a friend, family, loved ones, even strangers, I give a gift that they might like or could use, or maybe its something I don't need or want and know someone that would like to have it instead. I'm not an atheist though I'm more agnostic but have more general pagan views and such as far as any religion is concerned, but outside of the religion, outside of the commercialism of Christmas, what is important is the spirit of the season. Of the feelings we have for others and the world. Of the thought and ideas that we have come to accept for this time of year. The winter season is a time of togetherness, a time of ending and renewing. Remember what we have lost but also what we still have and have to look forward to. To make the best out of what is around us and to improve that which really needs and wants it.
Anyways, that's all I've got for now. Merry Christmas everyone, no matter what different name you use to distance your self from the name Christmas.