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[foxtaels]

i had a bizarre dream last night. dont remember most of it now, except that i was sitting somewhere with two or three other people (and ian ) and ian had found a peice of mail that the thought contained a check that he could cash, so he opened it. turns out it was a memory card for a computer (which he said he was going to sell) but we threw it into a computer to see what was on it. it had pictures of random people, so we skimmed through them...then i had to stop because there were pictures of frankie and jordan on the card, with people that i had never seen before. thought it was wierd, but just kept flipping through the pictures. then started seeing pictures of ellie and i, in places we had never been with people i had never met, in clothes that i would not wear (my hair was hot pink and ellies was baby blue, and we were at some sort of party looking all effed up). the next series of pictures were our bodies (dead) being serially brutalized. i started tearing up at the pictures, and then looked around for someone to tell me it would be okay, or a hug, or to let me cry. everyone just looked at me, and ian kind of chuckled and got up to leave, then said "wow, that really sucks." it was disturbing.

i hope i can get out of here next year.

amanda