still blah
like that's a big surprise. There's just too much on my mind and I'm tempted to see if my insurance covers shrinks so that I can bother someone else with my stupid insecurities. But then again, it's not like I'll be able to afford it anyway. After Halloween I'm going to start looking for a second job. Whether it's part-time or full-time won't matter. I'm tired of getting a paycheck and seeing it disappear. And with another job I'll be able to most likely afford to get my license though the possibility of a used car will still remain slim. Thinking of maybe applying to be housekeeping at the mall or wherever is close to Walgreens and is open late. It's going to suck but it must be done.
It just makes me feel disappointed in myself because I don't have a well-paying job and I can't seem to do anything right which makes me feel like I'm a disappointment to the people I care about. All this is just me being stupid and I'm hoping to feel better soon because all this feeling down bullshit sucks.
It just makes me feel disappointed in myself because I don't have a well-paying job and I can't seem to do anything right which makes me feel like I'm a disappointment to the people I care about. All this is just me being stupid and I'm hoping to feel better soon because all this feeling down bullshit sucks.