ok so long long long time
so ive been wayyyyyyy to kool for livejournal for about 2 years i stopped using it b/c i was always miserable hense to why i wrote in it so much but now i am back to square one there is no longer nikki&ashley anymore which is why i am so miserable, i have done this to myself however in the end of all this i am once again not good enough to keep and im not good enough to love and be with so w/e im back to this and i know no one reads this anymore so i dont have to wry about hurting anyone b/c no one will catch on that ive come back to this. it really hurts that shes not with me anymore and i feel horrible b/c i did it but she wants to go to parties and make out without rules and regulation which to me is rediculous and im hoping i will be able to make her see but i dont think she will b.c im not good enough for that either... story has not ended, im back, and i didnt miss this