You may think
that you are needed in this life so badly that something must happen now, and that guilt will consume you if it does not, and the world will collapse, etc, etc, blah blah. Get a life, and deflate your ego a bit. You aren't as important as breathing, the world goes on. Don't get caught up in your own percieved self importance to someone or something you end up making promises over and over you can't fulfill. And then you go from having an exxagerated sense of your worth in their life, and being irresponsible in your actions, to losing what importance you do have, and pissing off who you wanted to impress in the first place. So, from personal experience, take some deep breaths, be logical. you aren't all that to them. Make it work right or not at all. Unless you want to lose the friendship you actually do have, which is always more vaulable than the one you think you have. This has tons of spelling errors, but I'm really too tired to give a crap. Later. Oh, and I got a 93 metro thanks to a roommate, that gets mad gas mileage. so maybe I won't go totally broke. Yay.