Why am I so exhausted?
I wish I knew why all of a sudden, after weeks of similar behaviour, seven hours sleep is not enough for me. I'm so exhausted right now, words do not describe, and for absolutely no reason.
Maybe it's a subconscious sense of the looming, over-full-with-work future.
In actual fact there are a couple things that might be contributing. First, there were two close calls on the busy street outside my house last night. There is a reasonable amount of traffic, but normally it's not a problem, and it particularly won't be a problem once I move upstairs next year, where it's much, much quieter. Plus I'm a light sleeper when it comes to that sort of thing. But that's not the point. The point is that at some random hour of the night, someone honked their horn and woke me up, and then the SAME thing happened again at seven this morning. It's not a pleasant way of being woken up. You wake up first wondering what the HELL is going on, and then going 'Oh my god' and waiting for that nasty crunch sound that implies a car accident. You all know the sound. You're cringing right now as you imagine it. I was spared that particular audio stimuli both this morning and last night, so I'm left just being angry at the bastards that failed to respect my need for sleep.
Plus, I'm a morning person, and for some reason was super alert last night and didn't go to bed very early. I started playing piano (a digital piano with volume control and/or headphones so I don't disturb anyone that isn't as crazy as I am) at around midnight. For no apparent reason.
In any case I spent nearly an hour talking to the head of the music department this morning about whether or not I can complete my minor. She was very helpful and patient, which is refreshing because most people aren't. Simply the amount of time she spent with me is mind boggling, when you're used to people giving you one or two words of advice and then disappearing entirely. Plus, she told me I seemed both engaged and articulate. It's always nice to be buttered up with compliments too.
I have several options for the said music minor, which are all complicated by various course conflicts and other requirements, which mostly means I have to be signed in by instructors for each course, and in some cases I'd be able to talk myself in without prerequisites. Which is all fine and good but also a lot of legwork. The one course that seemed cool was 'experiential learning in music' which basically means I design a program for myself including both practical and community based activities, as well as a written log of my progress, and then a faculty member evaluates me on whatever I do. My ideas for this include a couple things, ranging from designing a summer camp (a LOT of work I'm guessing) to marketing myself for weddings and background music at restaurants (slightly less work). I'd need to write proposals and find a faculty member to sign on it by next wednesday, so I'm not sure if I can make it happen. But I think I should (and will) try. So yeah. Any ideas are appreciated....lol. Getting in to the course pretty much hinges on my ability to present a really good convincing proposal. The good thing? It's all designed by me: it can't conflict with my other courses because it's not a class and there's nothing to conflict with.
Anyway, it's good that I can probably make this whole thing work out, and bad that it requires so much running around to get special forms and things signed. My kind of hurts thinking about it. But I guess it's all going to be worth it in the end :)
Oh well. I said that I would make chicken kabobs for lunch for Tina and me (we have to eat the chicken before I go home tonight) but I'm so lazy I'm seriously considering just freezing the chicken and going to the university to buy my lunch instead. Hmm. Decisions, decisions.
Thanks to those who filled out my poll. To the rest of you, consider this a gentle nudge. Or not. Whatever.
*grins*
Maybe it's a subconscious sense of the looming, over-full-with-work future.
In actual fact there are a couple things that might be contributing. First, there were two close calls on the busy street outside my house last night. There is a reasonable amount of traffic, but normally it's not a problem, and it particularly won't be a problem once I move upstairs next year, where it's much, much quieter. Plus I'm a light sleeper when it comes to that sort of thing. But that's not the point. The point is that at some random hour of the night, someone honked their horn and woke me up, and then the SAME thing happened again at seven this morning. It's not a pleasant way of being woken up. You wake up first wondering what the HELL is going on, and then going 'Oh my god' and waiting for that nasty crunch sound that implies a car accident. You all know the sound. You're cringing right now as you imagine it. I was spared that particular audio stimuli both this morning and last night, so I'm left just being angry at the bastards that failed to respect my need for sleep.
Plus, I'm a morning person, and for some reason was super alert last night and didn't go to bed very early. I started playing piano (a digital piano with volume control and/or headphones so I don't disturb anyone that isn't as crazy as I am) at around midnight. For no apparent reason.
In any case I spent nearly an hour talking to the head of the music department this morning about whether or not I can complete my minor. She was very helpful and patient, which is refreshing because most people aren't. Simply the amount of time she spent with me is mind boggling, when you're used to people giving you one or two words of advice and then disappearing entirely. Plus, she told me I seemed both engaged and articulate. It's always nice to be buttered up with compliments too.
I have several options for the said music minor, which are all complicated by various course conflicts and other requirements, which mostly means I have to be signed in by instructors for each course, and in some cases I'd be able to talk myself in without prerequisites. Which is all fine and good but also a lot of legwork. The one course that seemed cool was 'experiential learning in music' which basically means I design a program for myself including both practical and community based activities, as well as a written log of my progress, and then a faculty member evaluates me on whatever I do. My ideas for this include a couple things, ranging from designing a summer camp (a LOT of work I'm guessing) to marketing myself for weddings and background music at restaurants (slightly less work). I'd need to write proposals and find a faculty member to sign on it by next wednesday, so I'm not sure if I can make it happen. But I think I should (and will) try. So yeah. Any ideas are appreciated....lol. Getting in to the course pretty much hinges on my ability to present a really good convincing proposal. The good thing? It's all designed by me: it can't conflict with my other courses because it's not a class and there's nothing to conflict with.
Anyway, it's good that I can probably make this whole thing work out, and bad that it requires so much running around to get special forms and things signed. My kind of hurts thinking about it. But I guess it's all going to be worth it in the end :)
Oh well. I said that I would make chicken kabobs for lunch for Tina and me (we have to eat the chicken before I go home tonight) but I'm so lazy I'm seriously considering just freezing the chicken and going to the university to buy my lunch instead. Hmm. Decisions, decisions.
Thanks to those who filled out my poll. To the rest of you, consider this a gentle nudge. Or not. Whatever.
*grins*