Ashes

[foxmagic]

My journal has been home to 3,251 posts detailing my deepest insecurities and highest aspirations.

I wrote a script to delete all but one of them. A few minutes ago, it finally completed its run.

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[collingwest]

I'm still here, but yes, it's been quiet around here lately. At this point I'm not posting anything to LiveJournal that I've not been willing to post anywhere else; and most of my stuff actually is written offline first. Since I redact some things before posting online, the offline version is the definitive one.

I ran a script a while back to make the majority of my journal private, but I just can't quite bring myself to delete it entirely. I had backed up my old ladyfirebird journal but that backup got lost on a computer switch, so it's gone. I don't want to lose this one too.

[foxmagic]

If you have (access to) a Mac, you're welcome to use my script to save your journal entries as PDFs. https://www.enchanter.net/2020/10/exporting-livejournal/

Thank you for replying here! How are you doing these days?

[collingwest]

Hanging in!

I've been cross-posting a semi-personal journal to LJ since about July, trying to keep myself in a regular habit. You should be able to see it, if you're interested in reading, but to speak to the earlier point, it's only "personal" in terms of tone. It has been revealing, though, to see how my own mental state ebbs and flows.

Other than that, I'm good - just busy with open enrollment season. How are you?

(And now I'm going off to read your blog...I hadn't realized you were keeping one. My bad!)

[foxmagic]

I will have a look at your blog! I've always loved your questioning and introspective nature, especially around religion. I haven't followed you very well, though; I know you're married now, and that you've had some trouble with people not accepting your family status?

My blog (if you hadn't found it yet) is at https://www.enchanter.net/blog/. I need to give it some TLC, though. It's been largely a dumping ground for whatever's on my mind. I want to update the theme to make it more welcoming, and use it to better showcase my writing (and to encourage me to write more in the first place).

[collingwest]

I've already added your blog to my feed reader. Sometimes people do drift apart, but I'm glad to see that we've drifted back together

[foxmagic]

It really grinds my gears to see Christianity used to drive people apart. It bothers me enough to see such a complex structure of rules and hierarchy of religious titles built up around what's supposed to have begin with a simple man and his simple message; but when someone who's supposed to represent the ideals of love and peace starts doing emotional harm to you and the people you love ... grr. I'm glad you seem to have come through that treatment still standing, and I hope you continue to heal from it. (And I hope that Will's ex-wife stops carrying you around 'rent-free in her head,' as they say, and learns to let the two you live your lives without her interference