this past weekend was one of the most sad and frustrating times for me in a while. it started out great. we thought we found a good match for bucky! we took him at 10am to the pasadena animal shelter and introduced him to a pitbill mix around his age. they were nervous at first and took a long walk together. then by the end of the walk, they were best buddies. they were playing and licking each other and running around. it was pretty much the happiest i've ever seen him because he could really play with her rough and she'd play back. it was pretty heartwarming to see. so, of course, we snatched her up! her name was honey, but we changed it to eleanor (ellie for short, because it sounded similar to honey)
things went downhill fast. we put them in the car together and they had a little spat. i put bucky on the floor in the front seat and made him calm down and the rest of the ride was pretty uneventful. they were great when we got out of the car, but she was really wary being in the house. she found a corner in the bedroom and wouldn't move from it. bucky was happy and hyper and bouncing all over the bed and we tried to get her to come up with him, but he'd get in her face and freak her out. he wasn't being outwardly aggressive or snarling at her, but he still freaked her out. she curled up on the ground and they both fell asleep. then bucky woke up and pounced on her (wanting to play) and she FLIPPED out and they got into the first of many scary fights.
she is so sweet with people, but she is really a shell of a dog. you reach down to touch her and she automatically sinks down to the ground. she warms up eventually, but it takes a lot of time and she regresses very quickly back to being totally timid and shy at the slightest sounds/movements. if i was living alone and didn't have another dog i know i could really help her come out of her shell and be a great dog. but i really don't think it's fair to her or to bucky to try to rehabilitate her in this kind of environment. i am pretty much decided at this point that we have to return her. i fought to keep her all weekend, but she's just getting worse. i feel awful seeing her so stressed out and clingy. i have to do the right thing, no matter how much it hurts.
i always get kind of ahead of myself, so i already bought tons of stuff for her (collar, leash, walking harness, bed, toys) and when we take her back i plan on giving them all to the shelter to hopefully make her more adoptable. she looks so cute in her collar and maybe that will make her stand out. i just feel like i really have to do the right thing for everyone here, but i still feel like i'm giving up on her, which hurts. sigh.
the shelter is closed today, so we can't take her back until tuesday. if anyone locally is looking for a dog and doesn't currently have one, she would be a great pet. she is not aggressive at all towards other dogs outside, walks really well with her harness and is pretty much the cuddliest thing you will ever meet. she just needs someone who can give her a lot of time and love and undivided attention. please let me know if you know of anyone!