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and heres an update. not really one of any significance. im not feeling philisophical in the slightest.. but yah.
kyle (the cat) is scratching at my door cause he can hear me in here on the phone and typing, but i shut the door on him. sucker. thats what he gets for shedding hair.
as the lyrics go, "this is life, this is life unconditional/ and we wait and we fade then we're gone, whats left is a fairy tale"
i suppose its true. right now is life. obviously. sometimes seems so routine. i wait for the next thing to happen; the next test, the next time i have to work, the next time i get to see chris. and then so abruptly, its gone. scares me a little to think that i might "fade" ... and then one day, im gonna be gone. whats gonna be left? my fairytale. what you people say about me. i can be so morbid sometimes.
i feel pretty rich right now. i have friends, i have family, i have love, and i have an education.
you can tell a lot about a person by who they surround themselves with. for me, its brittani and lindsey. everyday. i think im pretty lucky to have that... eventhough brit asked me if she could live in my house at a funeral, i forgave her for that.
i miss my family. i saw them for a few hours over spring break but thats it. i miss them. i already said that. sorry.
old friends.. i miss them too. my old friends are my old souls. the ones that when im 50, i could sit on a front porch with for hours and talk about absolutley nothing but realize that the day was well spent. ive lost touch. thats my fault. but really, im no superman, i cant do this all by myself. i cant make every friendship/relationship work unless there is some coming from their side. or at least that sounds like a justifiable excuse. maybe im just mediocre at time management and cant fit everything in. sounds legit, right? gawd, im horrible.
i miss church camp.
goodnight.
kyle (the cat) is scratching at my door cause he can hear me in here on the phone and typing, but i shut the door on him. sucker. thats what he gets for shedding hair.
as the lyrics go, "this is life, this is life unconditional/ and we wait and we fade then we're gone, whats left is a fairy tale"
i suppose its true. right now is life. obviously. sometimes seems so routine. i wait for the next thing to happen; the next test, the next time i have to work, the next time i get to see chris. and then so abruptly, its gone. scares me a little to think that i might "fade" ... and then one day, im gonna be gone. whats gonna be left? my fairytale. what you people say about me. i can be so morbid sometimes.
i feel pretty rich right now. i have friends, i have family, i have love, and i have an education.
you can tell a lot about a person by who they surround themselves with. for me, its brittani and lindsey. everyday. i think im pretty lucky to have that... eventhough brit asked me if she could live in my house at a funeral, i forgave her for that.
i miss my family. i saw them for a few hours over spring break but thats it. i miss them. i already said that. sorry.
old friends.. i miss them too. my old friends are my old souls. the ones that when im 50, i could sit on a front porch with for hours and talk about absolutley nothing but realize that the day was well spent. ive lost touch. thats my fault. but really, im no superman, i cant do this all by myself. i cant make every friendship/relationship work unless there is some coming from their side. or at least that sounds like a justifiable excuse. maybe im just mediocre at time management and cant fit everything in. sounds legit, right? gawd, im horrible.
i miss church camp.
goodnight.