Nov 02, 2004 17:55
I'm in quite the mood to write today. Maybe it is because of the dark music that is blastin' in my ears. Morbitity can be very interestin in these times. I find that if you are too hyper or cheerful, there is no room for true sadness. You bottle it up like a secret. Secrets can leak out sometimes.
If you bottle up your emotions too much, the bottle will either break or blow its top. It will not be fun once it does, because then it can lead to serious problems later on. Because of a hidden secret I had when I was small, I have developed skitzophrenia when I am under considerable amounts of stress. I have gone through many, many difficult things, and my doctor said it is a possibility that I could become more and more skitzoprenic as time goes on.
Fuck what the doctor said.
I create my own destiny.