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Last night was possibly the worst night I've had in a while. I feel like I did something wrong with/to everyone except no one will tell me what I did so I'm terrified to do/say anything for fear of doing whatever I did before.
I thought yesterday would be okay, you know? I hate that. And I'm not even hyper-emotional, I'm at my most reasonable state.
And on top of "relation" issues, I have other issues that are going on too and it's all piling up together and I'm so upset, and so confused, and so angry at myself for whatever I did that I'm not sure how to feel or what to do. And all I want to do is scream and cry but I don't do that, and I've "not done that" for such a long time in regards to emotions that I think I've forgotten how. So like a carbonated drink that's been shaken as much as it can without exploding, I'll sit and wait until the explosions go away and hope that no one will drink from me until I've regained some form of composure.
Dear drama,
You are making things difficult. Please remove yourself from me and others for that matter. Thank you.
-Ellie
I thought yesterday would be okay, you know? I hate that. And I'm not even hyper-emotional, I'm at my most reasonable state.
And on top of "relation" issues, I have other issues that are going on too and it's all piling up together and I'm so upset, and so confused, and so angry at myself for whatever I did that I'm not sure how to feel or what to do. And all I want to do is scream and cry but I don't do that, and I've "not done that" for such a long time in regards to emotions that I think I've forgotten how. So like a carbonated drink that's been shaken as much as it can without exploding, I'll sit and wait until the explosions go away and hope that no one will drink from me until I've regained some form of composure.
Dear drama,
You are making things difficult. Please remove yourself from me and others for that matter. Thank you.
-Ellie