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Things I need to learn, #117 and #118: Moderation; and learning to monitor and respond appropriately to my own needs, physical, psychological and mental.
It is far too frequent an event that I end up at work too tired to go home and rest, or too hungry to go find food. In fact, the 'too hungry to get food' happens often at home as well -- I put off eating in favour of doing apparently more urgent or important things until I get to the stage where I can't think properly any more because I'm so hungry, at which point I also can't think well enough to obtain food in any organised manner (like cooking, or being concerned with nutritional balance) so I eat whatever random things require the least effort and time. Ketchup or HP sauce and mayonnaise on crackers has made a disturbing reappearance in my diet of late. But, it has just occurred to me, in both these situations I don't actually consciously realise (or allow myself to realise) that I am tired or hungry _until_ it gets to the point of being critical, when as a result I am then much less capable of doing anything about it! Listening more carefully to what my body is saying; paying deliberate attention to how I feel -- this might help me solve the problem.
(As an aside, I don't know whether my resilience to adverse factors such as hunger and tiredness has decreased, so that levels I was once able 'safely' to ignore now compromise my ability to function, or whether the threshold up to which I am able to ignore them has increased. Likewise, I don't know whether I have become more able to focus on the things with which I am preoccupied, that prevent me from acknowledging my basic needs, or whether I have become less attuned to these needs...)
It is far too frequent an event that I end up at work too tired to go home and rest, or too hungry to go find food. In fact, the 'too hungry to get food' happens often at home as well -- I put off eating in favour of doing apparently more urgent or important things until I get to the stage where I can't think properly any more because I'm so hungry, at which point I also can't think well enough to obtain food in any organised manner (like cooking, or being concerned with nutritional balance) so I eat whatever random things require the least effort and time. Ketchup or HP sauce and mayonnaise on crackers has made a disturbing reappearance in my diet of late. But, it has just occurred to me, in both these situations I don't actually consciously realise (or allow myself to realise) that I am tired or hungry _until_ it gets to the point of being critical, when as a result I am then much less capable of doing anything about it! Listening more carefully to what my body is saying; paying deliberate attention to how I feel -- this might help me solve the problem.
(As an aside, I don't know whether my resilience to adverse factors such as hunger and tiredness has decreased, so that levels I was once able 'safely' to ignore now compromise my ability to function, or whether the threshold up to which I am able to ignore them has increased. Likewise, I don't know whether I have become more able to focus on the things with which I am preoccupied, that prevent me from acknowledging my basic needs, or whether I have become less attuned to these needs...)