The Will and the Way
...is like Oreos and milk, supposedly coexisting naturally, but it's never that simple for me because I'm complicated like that. I'm beginning to think it should.
One of my favorite fanficton writers managed an incredible feat: She has extensive revised a fic written four years ago (*gasp!* deja vu), in the process shaving off an incredible 7 chapters and rewriting a staggering 12 chapters from scratch in just one month. Holy crap. Is this woman a walking miracle or what? I re-read that story again, and goodness, I melted. Love, love, love.
Which brings me to the point of this entry: If she can do it, why can't I?
Of course, there's a whole can of worms involved in this enterprise - if I'm still interested, why I wrote in the first place, etc etc - but in the end the parallelism is glaring. My unfinished novel was started 5 years ago and have been shelved for more than 3 years already. I cringe whenever I read it. It begs for an extensive re-write and much-needed trimming. And yes, proof-reading, yes yes yes.
...And then there's the fact that it's, hmm, only 50% done. HAH.
So, I need to get this DFA thing over with (and God, yes, I'll deal with the crossroads issue later, yes, over Christmas, I swear), get my workload under control (must talk to JT, must talk to JT before CK kills me), and START WRITING AGAIN.
FT, rewrite. Personal Space, new. Damaetas, but make it short (maybe). And, and, and, that FT sequel that I never got around to writing.
Because, because, because. I still remember very well that I had never been happier than when I was churning out 20 pages of angst daily, hypnotized my the visage of a word processor during daybreak. And because I know I'm so much better now. God, my writing was so raw back then, and really, I should consider actually PROOF-READING my chapters before slapping them on FP.com.
Yes, yes, someone remind me of this tomorrow and the next day the day after, because I might forget, again. I don't want to forget.
One of my favorite fanficton writers managed an incredible feat: She has extensive revised a fic written four years ago (*gasp!* deja vu), in the process shaving off an incredible 7 chapters and rewriting a staggering 12 chapters from scratch in just one month. Holy crap. Is this woman a walking miracle or what? I re-read that story again, and goodness, I melted. Love, love, love.
Which brings me to the point of this entry: If she can do it, why can't I?
Of course, there's a whole can of worms involved in this enterprise - if I'm still interested, why I wrote in the first place, etc etc - but in the end the parallelism is glaring. My unfinished novel was started 5 years ago and have been shelved for more than 3 years already. I cringe whenever I read it. It begs for an extensive re-write and much-needed trimming. And yes, proof-reading, yes yes yes.
...And then there's the fact that it's, hmm, only 50% done. HAH.
So, I need to get this DFA thing over with (and God, yes, I'll deal with the crossroads issue later, yes, over Christmas, I swear), get my workload under control (must talk to JT, must talk to JT before CK kills me), and START WRITING AGAIN.
FT, rewrite. Personal Space, new. Damaetas, but make it short (maybe). And, and, and, that FT sequel that I never got around to writing.
Because, because, because. I still remember very well that I had never been happier than when I was churning out 20 pages of angst daily, hypnotized my the visage of a word processor during daybreak. And because I know I'm so much better now. God, my writing was so raw back then, and really, I should consider actually PROOF-READING my chapters before slapping them on FP.com.
Yes, yes, someone remind me of this tomorrow and the next day the day after, because I might forget, again. I don't want to forget.