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~~~ July 31 ~~~
I just love TFN, our Nursing spirits are rising up +_+ No Filipino. I was about to go home but we still need to check if there's really no Filipino. Hahaue and oniisama were waiting for me at Puregold, so after a minutes, I went outside. We waited for 30 minutes for our Professor, but he didn't come. So I went to Puregold and rode in our van. Infront of Grand Royale, I saw anihue, and rode in, but me and hahaue bored out to ride on a bus going to Caloocan. We rode on an FX, instead. Then we went to hahaue's Hair Styler friend and cut my hair shoulder-leveled Q////Q Good bye, hip-leveled long hair... I looked like a girl that is nice looking with neko mimi Dx But hey, I'm still wearing my Nursing uniform O_O I'm the only BSU student here, all are Manila students. We ate at Chowking and I went to North Mall alone to but CDs. Dx People were looking at me, thinking on what school I was from. I bought Monochrome Factor and Higurashi Season 1 Dx Hope it works... Then I went back and when to the Bus Terminal.
WHAT!!!??? STILL MARIA-SAMA!!!??? >_> I guess all the copies of Higurashi 1 sucks... I'll watch Maria-sama instead of returning it back -.-;; WAAAAAAAAA MONOCRHOME FACTOR IS SO O////O yaoi... AND CUTE!!! I like Shirogane-sama +w+ ~<333
I was crying alot after feeling the heart beat of the oldest kitten of my cat Dimlos... He was unconscious, but still alive... I'm blaming myself, for not curing him earlier... and now look what I've done to him... dieing... making weird hiss sounds, and not breathing... Before I went to sleep, I felt Dekapon's heartbeat. Still beating... I hugged Hatapon, saying "Live", because, I don't know... He was somewhat getting weaker, too... Kaamen looked normal, still hyper as ever. I was so ashamed because Kaamen would not be playing with them anymore, I won't be able to see them running around again...
~~~ July 30 ~~~
I... dreamt of... being with ouji-sama... I felt his warmth... His hands. He danced me...
Eventhough Unica-nee and Roxette-nee are nice to me like my sisters, I'm still doubting if ever I'll stick to them to be with someone else, or... leave them alone because, I'm so ashamed... I'm just sticking in to them, but I'm always at the back, always quiet, literally quiet, and I'm being Out of Place... After Math, I went with them. I don't know, but, I feel so ashamed... Roxette-nee always noticing me that I'm not talking, and trying me to talk. I'm just smilling, since I don't know what to talk about. That's my problem... Nahihiya na ko... That's why, I went alone after Chemistry... I should go at niichan's school, but he told me not to because it's too late. Then when I came home, I saw one of Dimlos's kitten, Dekapon, really getting weak and can't even walk straightly. What's next? What a day it is today.
I wanted to cry out, thinking about getting along with them or not. But I'm just having chest ache.
~~~ July 29 ~~~
>/////< Waaaiii many of my classmates said I'm cute on my dress today O////O The problem is, I think they would know me as the Fashion girl... Because every Wash Day, I always wear lolita-ish outfits. Even our Chemistry Professor said that... I'm sexy X////x;;
xD Unica-nee wanted me to go with them at SM Marilao, but I can't go, since I need to save money because of my dress today T////T Too bad...
~~~ July 28 ~~~
NO PSYCHOLOGY!!!??? I can watch Higurashi earlier! But I need to go to Bayan first.
Dx All of the Season 1's CD is Maria-sama... T////T so I chose Season 2 even if I still had no idea on what was happening.
+________+ Higurashi... I've been wanting to watch this. It's not that brutal WHEN THE ANIME ONLY SHOWS A CORPSE +_+ But it's fun when they previewed the main characters being crazy, killing each other uber violently. They all look so innocent, but they have secrets when it comes to murders *_* Omoshiroi desu... WAAAA NOW I WANT SEASON 1!!! It's more brutal! I think. I REALLY WANTED TO KILL THAT KISAMA LUSTY TAKANO NURSE YUCK. Eww. The way she speaks -_- It kills me, urge to kill is rising. +_+ *gets...* I want gun *gets gun* If only I can REALLY be a Sniper for goodness's sake +_+
~~~ July 27 ~~~
I feel bold, not wearing stockings Dx But I think it's fine, since the guard didn't yell at me. Since we don't have English, I just read "Howl's Moving Castle". After a minute, I went at the canteen to buy stockings, and saw Roxette-nee and Unica-nee, I walked with them. When we entered back at the room, and minutes after, Unica-nee suddenly whispered to me saying, "Sama ka sa amin sa dorm. Alis ka nang mabagal para walang makapansin". I was like, something happened? That's why I asked Roxette-nee when I saw her outside. She said, "Wala lang. Sama ka sa amin"... I was all blushy o////o They invited me... I envied Roxette-nee, because she could text her boyfriend anytime. But me, I need to spend P15 just to text ouji-sama, BUT I DON'T BLAME HIM. Why would I? The dorm is just simple like home. Dirty but not that dirty, I really expect it's appearance. NOT DIRTY LIKE COCKROACHES ALL OVER!!! She turned on all the fans and the TV. All of them were talking except me, because I don't know what they are talking about. They were always saying to me to speak up because I was all so quiet. BUT Roxette-nee told everyone that I'm no longer single >////< Why did she tell it!? They were all gasped that my boyfriend is from Singapore ( France, right now ). Izel-chan told me to ask for money. "I'm not that money monger, and I'm not that kind of person, making him as a boyfriend just for money" my mind says. We rest for awhile in the dorm, waited for Psycho. Before we left, Unica-nee pictured us all in the mirror to include her. But when we got back at school... also no Psycho. So that means we won't be late at PE!
Then after PE, I ate lunch, then went to Jollibee at Bayan to wait 3 hours Dx for niichan. Actually, I wanted to go out because it was TOO COLD inside, but of course I can't live my things.
~~~ July 26 ~~~
Before going to the mass, we all wore our uniform and tito pictures us. Sigh... From what I can see, I am really the one being left out. All of them are always glooming, while me, not. Even if I smile or teeth out, I still look weird. I feel embarrassed. If I'm making myself cute at the picture, it's getting worse. That's why I got terrified at cameras...
After the mass, me, niichan and oniisama went to bayan for me to buy stockings. But since we can't look for a store, we suddenly saw Gunslinger Girl Season 2!!!??? We bought it and watched the 1st ep at home.
.................................. RICO-SAMA REALLY MAKES ME EXPLODE *explodes with hearts*
~~~ July 25 ~~~
After NSTP, I went to the usual internet shop.
Still no updates about ouji-sama... After doing all what I should do at the internet, I played Trickster, and there, I met the new guild members and the character of the Allen cosplayer I met on UPAme con. Nowell-nii and Saety-nee, and also Danny-chan, onlined. When we were all sitting in line, something's... Something's not right... My chest suddenly ached that I can't bare, terribly shaking, can't put my eyesight in one direction, or the panic feelings. I was always saying, "Where is he?", "I should be with him", "He should be talkative than anyone else", and... "Someone's missing..." I know I should be happy because I just started playing Trickster again and being with new members, but it went all gone, and I couldn't even smile on that time. I was... I was planning on logging out without them knowing it because of the pain. But it's bad, so I just whisper it out to Nowell-nii... He understands me, having this painful feeling for not being with ouji-sama... I just endured the pain, and texted anihue to come so I could calm down a bit. I did calm, but just a litte... When the other guildmates went on their destinations, all of the girls stared at me. Aaah... Abellyo's hot? They even told me that I'm genius, being a College Student at the age fo 16. Well we have a different school system so I blame nothing. I switched to Hitsuji after hearing RenaChii-chan that she wanted to hug my sheep. She and Maysie-chan loves Hitsuji. I think sheeps wearing Pink are rare ( even Amanae, milady ). And when I switched to Haruwo, a. No guild. But RenaChii-chan recognized me and... Here goes the kawaii perverted Maysie-chan and RenaChii-chan, making Haru as their pet, putting a leash and cuddling and squeezing and etc. I think they both really love lions and raccoons O//////////O I, too... We made an RP, being a poor Haru and being with hyper Maysie-chan.
When I went home, and after looking all of my screen shots with anihue... I went to my room to endure the pain. I didn't know why I miss called Nowell-nii and ouji-sama... Then after that, I cried a bit...
I just love TFN, our Nursing spirits are rising up +_+ No Filipino. I was about to go home but we still need to check if there's really no Filipino. Hahaue and oniisama were waiting for me at Puregold, so after a minutes, I went outside. We waited for 30 minutes for our Professor, but he didn't come. So I went to Puregold and rode in our van. Infront of Grand Royale, I saw anihue, and rode in, but me and hahaue bored out to ride on a bus going to Caloocan. We rode on an FX, instead. Then we went to hahaue's Hair Styler friend and cut my hair shoulder-leveled Q////Q Good bye, hip-leveled long hair... I looked like a girl that is nice looking with neko mimi Dx But hey, I'm still wearing my Nursing uniform O_O I'm the only BSU student here, all are Manila students. We ate at Chowking and I went to North Mall alone to but CDs. Dx People were looking at me, thinking on what school I was from. I bought Monochrome Factor and Higurashi Season 1 Dx Hope it works... Then I went back and when to the Bus Terminal.
WHAT!!!??? STILL MARIA-SAMA!!!??? >_> I guess all the copies of Higurashi 1 sucks... I'll watch Maria-sama instead of returning it back -.-;; WAAAAAAAAA MONOCRHOME FACTOR IS SO O////O yaoi... AND CUTE!!! I like Shirogane-sama +w+ ~<333
I was crying alot after feeling the heart beat of the oldest kitten of my cat Dimlos... He was unconscious, but still alive... I'm blaming myself, for not curing him earlier... and now look what I've done to him... dieing... making weird hiss sounds, and not breathing... Before I went to sleep, I felt Dekapon's heartbeat. Still beating... I hugged Hatapon, saying "Live", because, I don't know... He was somewhat getting weaker, too... Kaamen looked normal, still hyper as ever. I was so ashamed because Kaamen would not be playing with them anymore, I won't be able to see them running around again...
~~~ July 30 ~~~
I... dreamt of... being with ouji-sama... I felt his warmth... His hands. He danced me...
Eventhough Unica-nee and Roxette-nee are nice to me like my sisters, I'm still doubting if ever I'll stick to them to be with someone else, or... leave them alone because, I'm so ashamed... I'm just sticking in to them, but I'm always at the back, always quiet, literally quiet, and I'm being Out of Place... After Math, I went with them. I don't know, but, I feel so ashamed... Roxette-nee always noticing me that I'm not talking, and trying me to talk. I'm just smilling, since I don't know what to talk about. That's my problem... Nahihiya na ko... That's why, I went alone after Chemistry... I should go at niichan's school, but he told me not to because it's too late. Then when I came home, I saw one of Dimlos's kitten, Dekapon, really getting weak and can't even walk straightly. What's next? What a day it is today.
I wanted to cry out, thinking about getting along with them or not. But I'm just having chest ache.
~~~ July 29 ~~~
>/////< Waaaiii many of my classmates said I'm cute on my dress today O////O The problem is, I think they would know me as the Fashion girl... Because every Wash Day, I always wear lolita-ish outfits. Even our Chemistry Professor said that... I'm sexy X////x;;
xD Unica-nee wanted me to go with them at SM Marilao, but I can't go, since I need to save money because of my dress today T////T Too bad...
~~~ July 28 ~~~
NO PSYCHOLOGY!!!??? I can watch Higurashi earlier! But I need to go to Bayan first.
Dx All of the Season 1's CD is Maria-sama... T////T so I chose Season 2 even if I still had no idea on what was happening.
+________+ Higurashi... I've been wanting to watch this. It's not that brutal WHEN THE ANIME ONLY SHOWS A CORPSE +_+ But it's fun when they previewed the main characters being crazy, killing each other uber violently. They all look so innocent, but they have secrets when it comes to murders *_* Omoshiroi desu... WAAAA NOW I WANT SEASON 1!!! It's more brutal! I think. I REALLY WANTED TO KILL THAT KISAMA LUSTY TAKANO NURSE YUCK. Eww. The way she speaks -_- It kills me, urge to kill is rising. +_+ *gets...* I want gun *gets gun* If only I can REALLY be a Sniper for goodness's sake +_+
~~~ July 27 ~~~
I feel bold, not wearing stockings Dx But I think it's fine, since the guard didn't yell at me. Since we don't have English, I just read "Howl's Moving Castle". After a minute, I went at the canteen to buy stockings, and saw Roxette-nee and Unica-nee, I walked with them. When we entered back at the room, and minutes after, Unica-nee suddenly whispered to me saying, "Sama ka sa amin sa dorm. Alis ka nang mabagal para walang makapansin". I was like, something happened? That's why I asked Roxette-nee when I saw her outside. She said, "Wala lang. Sama ka sa amin"... I was all blushy o////o They invited me... I envied Roxette-nee, because she could text her boyfriend anytime. But me, I need to spend P15 just to text ouji-sama, BUT I DON'T BLAME HIM. Why would I? The dorm is just simple like home. Dirty but not that dirty, I really expect it's appearance. NOT DIRTY LIKE COCKROACHES ALL OVER!!! She turned on all the fans and the TV. All of them were talking except me, because I don't know what they are talking about. They were always saying to me to speak up because I was all so quiet. BUT Roxette-nee told everyone that I'm no longer single >////< Why did she tell it!? They were all gasped that my boyfriend is from Singapore ( France, right now ). Izel-chan told me to ask for money. "I'm not that money monger, and I'm not that kind of person, making him as a boyfriend just for money" my mind says. We rest for awhile in the dorm, waited for Psycho. Before we left, Unica-nee pictured us all in the mirror to include her. But when we got back at school... also no Psycho. So that means we won't be late at PE!
Then after PE, I ate lunch, then went to Jollibee at Bayan to wait 3 hours Dx for niichan. Actually, I wanted to go out because it was TOO COLD inside, but of course I can't live my things.
~~~ July 26 ~~~
Before going to the mass, we all wore our uniform and tito pictures us. Sigh... From what I can see, I am really the one being left out. All of them are always glooming, while me, not. Even if I smile or teeth out, I still look weird. I feel embarrassed. If I'm making myself cute at the picture, it's getting worse. That's why I got terrified at cameras...
After the mass, me, niichan and oniisama went to bayan for me to buy stockings. But since we can't look for a store, we suddenly saw Gunslinger Girl Season 2!!!??? We bought it and watched the 1st ep at home.
.................................. RICO-SAMA REALLY MAKES ME EXPLODE *explodes with hearts*
~~~ July 25 ~~~
After NSTP, I went to the usual internet shop.
Still no updates about ouji-sama... After doing all what I should do at the internet, I played Trickster, and there, I met the new guild members and the character of the Allen cosplayer I met on UPAme con. Nowell-nii and Saety-nee, and also Danny-chan, onlined. When we were all sitting in line, something's... Something's not right... My chest suddenly ached that I can't bare, terribly shaking, can't put my eyesight in one direction, or the panic feelings. I was always saying, "Where is he?", "I should be with him", "He should be talkative than anyone else", and... "Someone's missing..." I know I should be happy because I just started playing Trickster again and being with new members, but it went all gone, and I couldn't even smile on that time. I was... I was planning on logging out without them knowing it because of the pain. But it's bad, so I just whisper it out to Nowell-nii... He understands me, having this painful feeling for not being with ouji-sama... I just endured the pain, and texted anihue to come so I could calm down a bit. I did calm, but just a litte... When the other guildmates went on their destinations, all of the girls stared at me. Aaah... Abellyo's hot? They even told me that I'm genius, being a College Student at the age fo 16. Well we have a different school system so I blame nothing. I switched to Hitsuji after hearing RenaChii-chan that she wanted to hug my sheep. She and Maysie-chan loves Hitsuji. I think sheeps wearing Pink are rare ( even Amanae, milady ). And when I switched to Haruwo, a. No guild. But RenaChii-chan recognized me and... Here goes the kawaii perverted Maysie-chan and RenaChii-chan, making Haru as their pet, putting a leash and cuddling and squeezing and etc. I think they both really love lions and raccoons O//////////O I, too... We made an RP, being a poor Haru and being with hyper Maysie-chan.
When I went home, and after looking all of my screen shots with anihue... I went to my room to endure the pain. I didn't know why I miss called Nowell-nii and ouji-sama... Then after that, I cried a bit...