"Liar, liar, if we're keeping score, we're all choir boys at best..."
I was going through my internet browser and decided to delete old links that I had saved, needless to say I came across a link for Aiden’s LJ (sexy_french_fry). Out of curiosity, I clicked it and apparently she had updated it around graduation. It's amazing how some people are so dedicated to holding onto fabricated stories and continue to lie.
I say 'fabricated stories' because with this LJ, she poses herself as a guy named Orion who lives in England (hence her constant use of ‘University’ instead of ‘college’), and I have it on good authority from several people that she does indeed pretend to be this Orion person, especially on the internet with other people. In fact, a few of her exes, that she dated online, aren't even aware that during they're 'relationships' they were actually dating a girl.
Anyway, what has me still in disbelief is that she'll mix in some truths with events that have happened (graduation, crew ending, and things that went down between us) but she’ll add her own twist to them. For example, with crew she writes: “ugh, i dont even know where to start... athletics maybe? i was the 7 seat for the varsity crew at my university for my entire last year and raked in 7 gold medals. i got coach's award and still have the championships at the end of next month. it's weird still having practice when i've already graduated... but i dont know what i'll do with myself once im done. i got All American and we moved the ranking of our boat up 6 places since last year. it was amazing. im frustrated, and a little bitter, that its ending for me so soon. my coach is the olympic crew coach and he told me if i had just started sooner, id be in the running for a place in the USA 8. technically, i still could, butttttt....”
...Yes she did get an assortment of medals this year with the team however of varying degrees, the team is definitely not competing in the championships (as awesome as that would have been) and oh, the Mills crew coach isn’t a male.
She then goes on to say that I cheated on her 5 times before we broke up, and that in her mind, we had dated for 3 months and had been breaking up for the remainder of the relationship, and that I was just ‘convenient’. But it’s this last bit of the entry that has me shaking my head:
“when i did finally do it, two weeks later was when i found out about the 2 last people she cheated on me with. i am nothing if not vindictive and bitter when i feel disrespected or betrayed. i ended up sleeping with our mutual friend on my ex's bed when she went home to visit her family during winter break. id didnt regret it and i still dont. and said girl still texts/calls me even though she's in the navy and lives in seattle. a few months later, i started talking to my hot, but crazy, ex and, again, had sex on my ex's bed when she wasn't home. (btw, this was all possible because for 5 months after i dumped her, we still had to live in the same apartment together. we had our own rooms and two other room mates, but still. i dont need to elaborate on how shitty that was). im not particularly proud of what i did, but im still bitter enough to where i dont yet regret it. and i doubt if i ever will. i told her when we first broke up that if she ever brought anyone over to the apartment (as in a guy she was interested in) id kick both of their asses. i meant it. and she knew i meant it. and she never did. but now she's dating one of my now ex-friends and team mate. when i found out about that (since they were both trying to hide it from me), i confronted him and threatened him. my friend told me he cried after i walked away.”
…Hm, let’s see. During the winter break there were really two people that she was really hanging out with consistently that were mutual friends. One of them I’ve known for three years and we’ve been on the same team together, and I trust her so when she told me that nothing happened with Aiden, I believed it and still do. So that cancels her out. The only other friend I can think of is our friend, Andrew, who is indeed in the Navy and from Seattle. Once again, here’s another friend that I trust, especially since I flat-out asked him if anything happened with them and he told me no; he had also gone through a similar situation/breakup with his last girlfriend, so I have no reason to not believe him. Not when Aiden’s this much of a liar to make herself out into a completely different person, with a different life, AND change little details of events that happen in the real world. I also highly doubt she actually slept with anyone in my room while I was gone, unless it was sharing the bed with her sister, since a) her sister was ‘renting’ out Aiden’s room/was in the apartment during the break and b) Aiden was sleeping in Kathleen’s room the entire break. However, if she did indeed fuck someone in my room, then I guess I gave her too much credit for being capable of doing the right thing.
Let me also point out that despite what her entry says, she’s definitely not living with her aunt and her mom is definitely not dead. Unless her mom became a zombie at some point during the school year.
I don’t know, maybe she gets some sick gratification from living this other life online where she gets to twist events to her favor and make herself out to be this great person. Maybe she just can’t deal with things that have actually happened and refuses to acknowledge her own mistakes. Whatever the reason(s) may be, it’s all very ironic given that she’s a psychology major.
In short, I am so so so SO glad to not have to deal or live with her anymore. Yes, despite all these lies and once again confirming that my suspicions about this other online life of hers were correct, despite her denials, I still want her to be happy. And no, I'm not just saying that. I don’t want anything to do with her but I do hope that she finds some sort of happiness in the future so she doesn’t have to continuously rely on creating a fantasy to be happy.
I say 'fabricated stories' because with this LJ, she poses herself as a guy named Orion who lives in England (hence her constant use of ‘University’ instead of ‘college’), and I have it on good authority from several people that she does indeed pretend to be this Orion person, especially on the internet with other people. In fact, a few of her exes, that she dated online, aren't even aware that during they're 'relationships' they were actually dating a girl.
Anyway, what has me still in disbelief is that she'll mix in some truths with events that have happened (graduation, crew ending, and things that went down between us) but she’ll add her own twist to them. For example, with crew she writes: “ugh, i dont even know where to start... athletics maybe? i was the 7 seat for the varsity crew at my university for my entire last year and raked in 7 gold medals. i got coach's award and still have the championships at the end of next month. it's weird still having practice when i've already graduated... but i dont know what i'll do with myself once im done. i got All American and we moved the ranking of our boat up 6 places since last year. it was amazing. im frustrated, and a little bitter, that its ending for me so soon. my coach is the olympic crew coach and he told me if i had just started sooner, id be in the running for a place in the USA 8. technically, i still could, butttttt....”
...Yes she did get an assortment of medals this year with the team however of varying degrees, the team is definitely not competing in the championships (as awesome as that would have been) and oh, the Mills crew coach isn’t a male.
She then goes on to say that I cheated on her 5 times before we broke up, and that in her mind, we had dated for 3 months and had been breaking up for the remainder of the relationship, and that I was just ‘convenient’. But it’s this last bit of the entry that has me shaking my head:
“when i did finally do it, two weeks later was when i found out about the 2 last people she cheated on me with. i am nothing if not vindictive and bitter when i feel disrespected or betrayed. i ended up sleeping with our mutual friend on my ex's bed when she went home to visit her family during winter break. id didnt regret it and i still dont. and said girl still texts/calls me even though she's in the navy and lives in seattle. a few months later, i started talking to my hot, but crazy, ex and, again, had sex on my ex's bed when she wasn't home. (btw, this was all possible because for 5 months after i dumped her, we still had to live in the same apartment together. we had our own rooms and two other room mates, but still. i dont need to elaborate on how shitty that was). im not particularly proud of what i did, but im still bitter enough to where i dont yet regret it. and i doubt if i ever will. i told her when we first broke up that if she ever brought anyone over to the apartment (as in a guy she was interested in) id kick both of their asses. i meant it. and she knew i meant it. and she never did. but now she's dating one of my now ex-friends and team mate. when i found out about that (since they were both trying to hide it from me), i confronted him and threatened him. my friend told me he cried after i walked away.”
…Hm, let’s see. During the winter break there were really two people that she was really hanging out with consistently that were mutual friends. One of them I’ve known for three years and we’ve been on the same team together, and I trust her so when she told me that nothing happened with Aiden, I believed it and still do. So that cancels her out. The only other friend I can think of is our friend, Andrew, who is indeed in the Navy and from Seattle. Once again, here’s another friend that I trust, especially since I flat-out asked him if anything happened with them and he told me no; he had also gone through a similar situation/breakup with his last girlfriend, so I have no reason to not believe him. Not when Aiden’s this much of a liar to make herself out into a completely different person, with a different life, AND change little details of events that happen in the real world. I also highly doubt she actually slept with anyone in my room while I was gone, unless it was sharing the bed with her sister, since a) her sister was ‘renting’ out Aiden’s room/was in the apartment during the break and b) Aiden was sleeping in Kathleen’s room the entire break. However, if she did indeed fuck someone in my room, then I guess I gave her too much credit for being capable of doing the right thing.
Let me also point out that despite what her entry says, she’s definitely not living with her aunt and her mom is definitely not dead. Unless her mom became a zombie at some point during the school year.
I don’t know, maybe she gets some sick gratification from living this other life online where she gets to twist events to her favor and make herself out to be this great person. Maybe she just can’t deal with things that have actually happened and refuses to acknowledge her own mistakes. Whatever the reason(s) may be, it’s all very ironic given that she’s a psychology major.
In short, I am so so so SO glad to not have to deal or live with her anymore. Yes, despite all these lies and once again confirming that my suspicions about this other online life of hers were correct, despite her denials, I still want her to be happy. And no, I'm not just saying that. I don’t want anything to do with her but I do hope that she finds some sort of happiness in the future so she doesn’t have to continuously rely on creating a fantasy to be happy.