"Without trust, there can be no love. Jealousy, yes, jealousy will drive you mad."
A revelation and subsequent schism has happened in my relationship. The initial shock is gone but I still feel like I'm walking through a fog. I will probably feel this way for some time.
The greatest task in front of me now is deciding what to do. Virgos hate it when they don't have a plan. Well I guess it's not so much that I don't have a plan (as I've already ran through scenarios for both outcomes) but it's that I honestly do not know what I will decide. Can I forgive AND forget and move on, or not? If not, this will not work and there can be no rebuilding, no moving past it. Regardless of whether he deserves it, I still love him... but unfortunately The Beatles were wrong and love is not all you need. A relationship needs love, trust, respect, partnership, so many things. The only thing I have left at the moment is love and that is the damnable misery of it. Because if I didn't love him it would make things so much easier.
Not that I'm a big fan of the holidays but this will probably be the shittiest christmas of my life so far.
The greatest task in front of me now is deciding what to do. Virgos hate it when they don't have a plan. Well I guess it's not so much that I don't have a plan (as I've already ran through scenarios for both outcomes) but it's that I honestly do not know what I will decide. Can I forgive AND forget and move on, or not? If not, this will not work and there can be no rebuilding, no moving past it. Regardless of whether he deserves it, I still love him... but unfortunately The Beatles were wrong and love is not all you need. A relationship needs love, trust, respect, partnership, so many things. The only thing I have left at the moment is love and that is the damnable misery of it. Because if I didn't love him it would make things so much easier.
Not that I'm a big fan of the holidays but this will probably be the shittiest christmas of my life so far.