I've been hurt so bad
I figure since I havent updated in so long no one will think to check this so i can rant in peace....
I've been so hurt. Caitlin and I broke up a couple weeks ago. It took me about an hour to start thinkin that I'm doing something stupid but i still let it go until the next day or so.
Last night I found out that our entire relationship was a lie. She told me she never loved me, she only dated me out of pitty, and that she like derik. I hate them all right now. I hate her as much as I love her. I dont understand how this always happens to me. I"m tired of being the mother fucking friend all the time. It's like it's impossible for someone to love me. I'm really fucked up right now. I havent been able to sleep but maybe 4 hours in 2 days and i'll i've done is cry and curse. I was so sure that she was the one. I love her so much but she doesnt love me and that hurts more than i can explain. I cant think of a word that explains how i feel. I should have seen it. It wasnt until we broke up that i knew she liked derik and didnt love me....
I've been so hurt. Caitlin and I broke up a couple weeks ago. It took me about an hour to start thinkin that I'm doing something stupid but i still let it go until the next day or so.
Last night I found out that our entire relationship was a lie. She told me she never loved me, she only dated me out of pitty, and that she like derik. I hate them all right now. I hate her as much as I love her. I dont understand how this always happens to me. I"m tired of being the mother fucking friend all the time. It's like it's impossible for someone to love me. I'm really fucked up right now. I havent been able to sleep but maybe 4 hours in 2 days and i'll i've done is cry and curse. I was so sure that she was the one. I love her so much but she doesnt love me and that hurts more than i can explain. I cant think of a word that explains how i feel. I should have seen it. It wasnt until we broke up that i knew she liked derik and didnt love me....