ugh....
Things right now just suck to say the least. I wish now i would have gotten a job when i had the opportunity. I planed on getting a job when i turned 18 because then i would have a car and i could work. That fell through because those people at school dont know how to do their jobs so i have to take a night course now. My parent's tax return went entirely to our house in alabama for repairs and since my parents both work til almost 7 at night the chances of me getting a job are next to nothing. Ya i could get a job somewhere working on the weekends but i just dont need the added stress. Another depressing thing is that I cant join the military because i'm too fat and my parents arent exacally helping by making every fatty food they can come up with. I'm so sick of being critized for not working. people just dont understand i cant fucking do it! just today dana was like "i'm one of those people who get what i want no matter what it take." and i was like "so am i" and she has the nerve to tell me "no your not other wise you would have a job and stuff." i almost hung up on her right then and there. No offense but she is just so ignorant sometimes. She thinks that the day she turns 18 she will be able to move out and you know she might but i have a strong feeling that she is in for a wake up call. ugh...im just so stressed out right now. People just dont understand how hard it is to manage a long distance relationship, try to lose weight with almost no support from anyone around you, try to do a major school project that decides weather you graduate or not, try to figure out how to get a car or even get around at all, try to complete a night course, and deal with having no friends around at the same time. That just pissed me off so much when dana said that. Even if she was just joking. I've had to work for everything i've gotten. I'm not talking about material things like stuff my parents buy me. I'm talking all the way through highschool. I've been fucked around since i came to this place and i've battled through everything they have thrown at me. GGRRR what right does anyone have to judge me but the good Lord himself?! ...you know what...fuck em. fuck every last one of them! I'm sick of these little kids who think they know every damn thing! *sigh* i'm just sick and tired...