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i havent written in this for a very long time but i had a thought today and i wanted to write it down somewhere. alright i had a break between classes today so i went out to sit on the wall where everyone goes to smoke and as i sat there looking out at the river and the city the train passing by and all the people standing around me doing their own things, standing in their little circles and there i was alone on the wall just staring off observing and as i sat there with my knees near my chest i felt small. i have never in my life felt small like no one could notice me like i was just there tiny as could be and for some reason it made me happy. i felt free from judgement and free from worrying about pleasing other people. i was small and unnoticable and free to consintrate on what i wanted. i liked the moment of escape.