Xanga Copy again. Whee. I need someone to fix this whole... ugly site thing
I guess it always hurts when you find out that you have unequal feelings... Like that you would give up your life, your comfort, your world for someone... and they have no idea. Or they don't care. Or they wouldn't do the same.
Sometimes it's a pain in the ass being an optimist... thinking that it's going to change. Thinking that things will be okay. And then when they aren't, your world just sort of melts away. And when you realize that you aren't loved... you're not sure what to do. Because you feel so lost.
I'm so cold...
I guess I just wish I didn't care. I wish I could just... ignore my feelings. I hate it. I hate the way it is. I hate being the only one on the telephone when the other party has hung up. I hate cutting back grass for no reason. I hate having people laugh when my world is falling apart and they don't even care. I wish... I wish that I could feel nothing.
It hurts to know you'll never be anyone's one and only.
Sometimes it's a pain in the ass being an optimist... thinking that it's going to change. Thinking that things will be okay. And then when they aren't, your world just sort of melts away. And when you realize that you aren't loved... you're not sure what to do. Because you feel so lost.
I'm so cold...
I guess I just wish I didn't care. I wish I could just... ignore my feelings. I hate it. I hate the way it is. I hate being the only one on the telephone when the other party has hung up. I hate cutting back grass for no reason. I hate having people laugh when my world is falling apart and they don't even care. I wish... I wish that I could feel nothing.
It hurts to know you'll never be anyone's one and only.