"YA FOOLIN YASELF!!...YAKILLIN YASELF!!!" -Styx
k...so am I getting ahead of myself? I am switching into advertising and planning on getting a minor in business (only cuz I would have to take like 3 more course to get it when its all said and done). I freakin out because Im gonna have to ACTUALLY take real classes. Like all academic classes. I haven't done that since like 8th grade. Now, I've realized this year that I actually have the capability to work hard and produce decent grades; however, I don't know if it's possible to pull off all of those grades at the same time.
Damn...what the fuck has happened to me? Me?...actually caring about grades? Wow...im boring. don't like it.
I miss the old days. I miss the times when I could hang out with people that I don't even talk to anymore. Just called a few people that I haven't talked to in months. parts were awkward. isn't it weird that at one point you can be so close with people and the next minute have it be awkward? I KNOW RIGHT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!eh............what da hell?
Wow...I've always heard that you change in college...but I don't like it. I'm not fun anymore. I'm not spontaneous. I'm not crazy Ricky Bellows that everyone's known me to be? I refuse to think that this is simply growing up. As they say in Peter Pan, "I don't wanna grow up!"
k...and there is a problem here...It should NOT feel so good to write on this live journal thing. That just means I'm repressing these feelings until I need to let them out. When I tell these feelings to a certain someone...I never get the reaction I expect. I just get a "you're crazy" kind of reaction.
Psh....I dunno...
-R
Damn...what the fuck has happened to me? Me?...actually caring about grades? Wow...im boring. don't like it.
I miss the old days. I miss the times when I could hang out with people that I don't even talk to anymore. Just called a few people that I haven't talked to in months. parts were awkward. isn't it weird that at one point you can be so close with people and the next minute have it be awkward? I KNOW RIGHT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!eh............what da hell?
Wow...I've always heard that you change in college...but I don't like it. I'm not fun anymore. I'm not spontaneous. I'm not crazy Ricky Bellows that everyone's known me to be? I refuse to think that this is simply growing up. As they say in Peter Pan, "I don't wanna grow up!"
k...and there is a problem here...It should NOT feel so good to write on this live journal thing. That just means I'm repressing these feelings until I need to let them out. When I tell these feelings to a certain someone...I never get the reaction I expect. I just get a "you're crazy" kind of reaction.
Psh....I dunno...
-R