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[fourteenclovers]

well my greatest fear has come upon me in the last two weeks....

I have lost my love..

And im told there is noting i can do but sit back and watch everything dissappear.
But thats not what i want.

I want to be with her. I want to fix everything that is wronge.

everything that I have done or havnt done right to lose her I dont care about.

I want to give up just for her.

all the time apart she wants she can have..

everything.

I dont know what to do with my self..

I try and stay calm and not think about it but some how my mind brings my self to think about everything..

I dont know why she is willing to give up so easy. Im told it is just her.
but I just wish for once she wouldnt one time take a chance not to rely on her minds eye.
not to think about the past or the future to think about the present and what she will do next.

it doesnt matter if i see her today or tomorrow because I know I will see her again in my travels.
the ony thing that matters now is to have the chance of a life time with her ♥

i dont know what to do with my self..

i say lets take time apart and than start over brand new.

and if it doesnt work than i give up also.