I Hate Human Beings
Today, I make a vow never to ingest caffeine again. But I am a nothing with nothing words. The only thing I ever had was a dream of a sound, a rhythm, the thing you hear that is behind every beautiful word, every note, every dream.
I have learned that I must live for nothing. The future must be bleak, blank, tirelessly abraded for the sake of the present. Only then will my nights mean anything. Nothing means anything if I have to wake up the next morning. Everything falls apart in the face of such oppression. If there is the need, the requirement, to wake up in the morning at an unnatural hour, then tonight is dissolved into lonely, clear bile. Tonight retains nothing and burns evilly.
My head hurts. My eye twitches. Never again the artificial answer to sleepiness which ruins me in impotent desire. I thrash against every emotion I ever felt; I long for girls with beautiful eyes at this hour, with the infinite lines of their corneas radiating color from the sublime. I would see forever and never want to look away and I would go blind for the luminance.
I have learned that I must live for nothing. The future must be bleak, blank, tirelessly abraded for the sake of the present. Only then will my nights mean anything. Nothing means anything if I have to wake up the next morning. Everything falls apart in the face of such oppression. If there is the need, the requirement, to wake up in the morning at an unnatural hour, then tonight is dissolved into lonely, clear bile. Tonight retains nothing and burns evilly.
My head hurts. My eye twitches. Never again the artificial answer to sleepiness which ruins me in impotent desire. I thrash against every emotion I ever felt; I long for girls with beautiful eyes at this hour, with the infinite lines of their corneas radiating color from the sublime. I would see forever and never want to look away and I would go blind for the luminance.