Sabotage
In highschool, Amy oozed sex and had more than the looks to match it, she was the bad girl who used to catch my bus and rule the back seat. Plus she went to the local all-girls catholic high school, so you can probably picture the allure of this girl. The funny part was that for the 6 years of highschool, I spent most of it wondering about how to engineer a situation where our love for each other collided and how we'd live happily ever after... the only thing that really interrupted this thought was that of how every guy she was dating at one time or another was the target for her bitching, her biccering and her just general vicious approach to other people. I pined for a girl I didn't want to be involved with.
Holly was nice though, she was the girl I genuinely liked. Holly shared my Ancient Histoy, my Business Studies and my Maths classes. She was the popular girl in school, both with the students in our year and grades below, not to mention one of the staff favourites. She wasn't the smartest, the most athletic or anything really, she was just popular and we became quite close friends somehow. I spent most of my highschool life ignoring the interests of any other girl in the hope she would come along. I spent most of the later years of high school doing the same thing I did with Amy, mostly imagining... and ignoring any possibility of a relationship with any other girl for the entire time in highschool, tunnel vision consumed me.
I realised that I made the right move with life during those years regarding those two girls, I did the right thing to not act on it, Amy is still the girl who'll conciously break the heart of anyone who'll lend it to her, and I just didn't realise how close Holly and her friend Susan were... even today, those 2 girls represent my best example of self-sabotaging relationships, crushing over a girl I never wanted to date and pining over a girl who likes other girls... it was four2seven at its finest.
Holly was nice though, she was the girl I genuinely liked. Holly shared my Ancient Histoy, my Business Studies and my Maths classes. She was the popular girl in school, both with the students in our year and grades below, not to mention one of the staff favourites. She wasn't the smartest, the most athletic or anything really, she was just popular and we became quite close friends somehow. I spent most of my highschool life ignoring the interests of any other girl in the hope she would come along. I spent most of the later years of high school doing the same thing I did with Amy, mostly imagining... and ignoring any possibility of a relationship with any other girl for the entire time in highschool, tunnel vision consumed me.
I realised that I made the right move with life during those years regarding those two girls, I did the right thing to not act on it, Amy is still the girl who'll conciously break the heart of anyone who'll lend it to her, and I just didn't realise how close Holly and her friend Susan were... even today, those 2 girls represent my best example of self-sabotaging relationships, crushing over a girl I never wanted to date and pining over a girl who likes other girls... it was four2seven at its finest.