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God I miss Kayla. I miss her so much. I want that security back. She was my foundation. I never wanted to be one of those people that completely depended on someone for their happiness, and we have both proven that we don't "need" each other, but that doesn't mean that I don't want her around. We were infinite together. That's a rare feeling that I got to experience everday with her. We didn't need anyone else, anyone. Don't get me wrong, I'm so thankful for the people I have. My boys are the best and nothing in the world and nothing can compare to how wonderful they are; but female companionship and complete understanding of each other is something that you can't force and rarely find.
Kay, I don't want you to leave. I'm sorry that things are the way they are right now. I'm sorry for the way they have been. I know there's so much bullshit there, I know. How can this be it? How can we be like this????
Kay, I don't want you to leave. I'm sorry that things are the way they are right now. I'm sorry for the way they have been. I know there's so much bullshit there, I know. How can this be it? How can we be like this????