Going a bit weird from sleep deprivation....

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 I have made a conscious choice to go to sleep now. The essay is in on friday at 5, have written approx. 1000 words. Admittedly I haven't yet actually addressed the question... but I feel this is the question's fault, not mine. It's a bit frustrating, because however good my intentions are, I always seem to be up late the night before the deadline, desperately bashing out 3000 words. At least this time I've only got 2000 words left. Improvement I feel. I really, truly hate this topic. I think that's why it's taken me so long. The American Depression, is, well, depressing. It drags at my spirits. Spending minimum 6hrs a day in the British Library doesn't help much either, of course. Today I had TWO tea breaks. And a KitKat. Controversial. All of this incessant learning is making me feel a bit mental. That and lack of sleep - average bedtime these days is between 2 and 3 am, and since I've been making sure I'm up at 9 it's not quite the quantity of sleep that I'm used to. Technically I should push on tonight and get this out of the way, but my writing has stopped making sense so I think it's time to stop. 
Starting my dissertation on friday. Joy. Actually, it should be quite fun in an academic way, at least it's stuff I like - Renaissance porn. Sort of. Title is 'Metamorphosis and the Male Gaze' and it's basically 10,000 words about Jupiter raping innocent young women. What a naughty man. I've got a while left to do it, but both my flatmates have written half of theirs already, which makes one feel a bit inadequate. And panicked.
Oh whinge moan. I really must stop whining. At least I have a nice flat, good friends, and earlier I had a very tasty dinner :)
Night all x