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hmm christmas..i got a jacket..but it looks weird on me so i think im gonna exchange it for something else..i got some money and make up..not much really for christmas this year, but oh well its really not about the gifts, ive grown up and just realized its not really important, its the thought that counts.
the only thing that bummed me out is that i cant spend my paychecks here and there anymore i need to save for insurance money, so i asked my dad for a 130 dollar jacket, and he said no. it would be fine if he said no, the only thing that makes me mad is that he can spend 700 dollars to go elk hunting but cant get me a jacket, he never gives me a christmas present, and never gave me a birthday present, its not like he purposely does it, but oh well, i dont need him, or the things i want. i know this sounds selfish, but i cant explain it, i dont need things like clothes or anything from him, i just want him to love me, i know he says he does, but no matter what i do, i cant live up to his expectations. its just not fair. whatever
oh well.. anyway me and that friend are good again, its just a stupid little fight that we were both immature aboiut so its okay i was just in a bad mood when i wrote that entry.
anyway i can never stop talking about kurt i know but he is the bst boyfriend who is so special to me and were gonna hit one year in 2 and a half months, thats all i want. he just treats me so good and i dont know, but sometimes in relationships people get bored of each other or fight a lot but he, god he is so different, we have never got not even in ONE bad arguement or fight, he has never called me stupid or dumb or a bitch, he respects me, i am so comfortable with him, for my first love, i really picked a good one. when everthing in my life gets bad, i just turn to him, hes like my comfort zone, the person that will just take all the bad things from me and make it all better. he always knows the right things to say to make me smile, i have never met a guy like that, one that loves me for who i am without all the makeup and straightened hair and cute clothes. he loves me even when i go to his house with no makeup my hair wet and me just wearing sweats and a sweatshirt. i never have to worry about what hes thinking in his head when i wear that, im not self conscious around him, he makes me feel so confident about myself, he loves me so much, i hear it in his words and see it in his eyes. he is so protective of me, he would never let anything bad happen to me. god even his mom loves me like im her own daughter, its just so great to know i found someone who loves me for who i am, and i can just act like myself a total idiot in front of him and it will just put a smile in his face. im the clumbiest person when im with him too, im just the same nina when im with him, i dont need to act different or anything. we just talk about EVERYTHING, were so comfortable with each other, and unlike any other guy ive been with, he hasnt gotten bored of me, and i still love him like i do from day one, but even more and visa versa. i love that boy to death, i really do
bahh so im getting another car in about 3-4 months, i got my money for the subs put away im soo excited. anyway i work at 6 in the morning so night nightttt
the only thing that bummed me out is that i cant spend my paychecks here and there anymore i need to save for insurance money, so i asked my dad for a 130 dollar jacket, and he said no. it would be fine if he said no, the only thing that makes me mad is that he can spend 700 dollars to go elk hunting but cant get me a jacket, he never gives me a christmas present, and never gave me a birthday present, its not like he purposely does it, but oh well, i dont need him, or the things i want. i know this sounds selfish, but i cant explain it, i dont need things like clothes or anything from him, i just want him to love me, i know he says he does, but no matter what i do, i cant live up to his expectations. its just not fair. whatever
oh well.. anyway me and that friend are good again, its just a stupid little fight that we were both immature aboiut so its okay i was just in a bad mood when i wrote that entry.
anyway i can never stop talking about kurt i know but he is the bst boyfriend who is so special to me and were gonna hit one year in 2 and a half months, thats all i want. he just treats me so good and i dont know, but sometimes in relationships people get bored of each other or fight a lot but he, god he is so different, we have never got not even in ONE bad arguement or fight, he has never called me stupid or dumb or a bitch, he respects me, i am so comfortable with him, for my first love, i really picked a good one. when everthing in my life gets bad, i just turn to him, hes like my comfort zone, the person that will just take all the bad things from me and make it all better. he always knows the right things to say to make me smile, i have never met a guy like that, one that loves me for who i am without all the makeup and straightened hair and cute clothes. he loves me even when i go to his house with no makeup my hair wet and me just wearing sweats and a sweatshirt. i never have to worry about what hes thinking in his head when i wear that, im not self conscious around him, he makes me feel so confident about myself, he loves me so much, i hear it in his words and see it in his eyes. he is so protective of me, he would never let anything bad happen to me. god even his mom loves me like im her own daughter, its just so great to know i found someone who loves me for who i am, and i can just act like myself a total idiot in front of him and it will just put a smile in his face. im the clumbiest person when im with him too, im just the same nina when im with him, i dont need to act different or anything. we just talk about EVERYTHING, were so comfortable with each other, and unlike any other guy ive been with, he hasnt gotten bored of me, and i still love him like i do from day one, but even more and visa versa. i love that boy to death, i really do
bahh so im getting another car in about 3-4 months, i got my money for the subs put away im soo excited. anyway i work at 6 in the morning so night nightttt