...

[foseknows]

so i'm worried. not a whole lot, but slightly. this past week and a half i've been having irregular bleeding. so mer and leigh took me to the docs, and he said it could very likely have been a miscarriage. and i told him that if that was the case that would be my second. and he told me that i could possibly have problems with pregnancy when i actually want to have kids. and i'm really stressed out by this possibility. i keep telling myself that it's okay if i can't birth babies, becuase if i really want children i can always adopt. but the very thought of the doc bringing up the fact that i might not be able to...well i guess thats just depressing. he said it also could just be a hormone imbalance or a number of different things that could be causing this.
his tests were inconclusive, and he refered me to an OBGYN for further analysis to find out what actually is going on in my body.
i'm just nerveous.
i hope i'm stressing over nothing.
fuck this not knowing what is wrong with my uterus shit!
this blows!]

xoxo, Jenny Rose