what good is one glove...without the other.
my eyes are open and wide..
i dont even know what happened with my life...all of the sudden im working all the time, taking classes all hours of the day. Running around feeling rushed and i have nothing thats really rushing me except homework and papers. I just panic my self and today as i drove home at 12:30 at night i thought to myself...when did i grow up?
im in the mood for a change... i need to loose the unwanted gained weight...get rid of it before i have to wear a bathing suit. I also came the the conclusion that im fucked up. I did some pretty messed up things in the past and they haunt me everyday but here i am..thinking about this amazing guy that i have been with for over 3 years and i cant even think about what my life could be like without him. i really, really, really love him. Sometimes i think that i just need to be single, move on.. focus on just my studies and be independent... i get like 5 mintuts of that freedom and i just feel wrong my heart will never let me leave.. i cant do it, i wont make it. I can barley make a week without seeing him, it sucks more than anything.My bestfriend said the most inspiring words to me on thurday night..she told me about me and charles relationship and told me about how we are each others better half. I opend my eyes and really understood something for a change, that whole day was a blur, didnt understand psych or bio but i understood that =) i really appreciated that i just needed to hear it from someone other then me and char...
i worked today with moni and megs...it was fun and i did absolutley NOTHING ahaha.
tomm i work with moni again and i guess ill get my homework done...lol
i feel refreshed and just happy..but then again sad at the same time because its another week before i get to hang out with charlie again...
ill update on my week..and try to keep this as regular as possible.
i dont even know what happened with my life...all of the sudden im working all the time, taking classes all hours of the day. Running around feeling rushed and i have nothing thats really rushing me except homework and papers. I just panic my self and today as i drove home at 12:30 at night i thought to myself...when did i grow up?
im in the mood for a change... i need to loose the unwanted gained weight...get rid of it before i have to wear a bathing suit. I also came the the conclusion that im fucked up. I did some pretty messed up things in the past and they haunt me everyday but here i am..thinking about this amazing guy that i have been with for over 3 years and i cant even think about what my life could be like without him. i really, really, really love him. Sometimes i think that i just need to be single, move on.. focus on just my studies and be independent... i get like 5 mintuts of that freedom and i just feel wrong my heart will never let me leave.. i cant do it, i wont make it. I can barley make a week without seeing him, it sucks more than anything.My bestfriend said the most inspiring words to me on thurday night..she told me about me and charles relationship and told me about how we are each others better half. I opend my eyes and really understood something for a change, that whole day was a blur, didnt understand psych or bio but i understood that =) i really appreciated that i just needed to hear it from someone other then me and char...
i worked today with moni and megs...it was fun and i did absolutley NOTHING ahaha.
tomm i work with moni again and i guess ill get my homework done...lol
i feel refreshed and just happy..but then again sad at the same time because its another week before i get to hang out with charlie again...
ill update on my week..and try to keep this as regular as possible.