beau boy bringing me down but up

[foryoubluex]

let us i-bank these metaphors
and say that
blue-haired blond-eyed boy will be worth much more
next year --
I buy futures.
I buy him.
will he love me one day? why
why why why
don't I feel like I am a horrible person?
I love his energy, his silliness, his
love of being loved.