oops i forgot.
i made my semi-relationship with shawn into 100% friends.
i just didnt like that he wanted me to commit...even if it was just sexually...thats more than i could handle.
hes fucking wonderful. a really amazing person. but I JUST CANT.
and it was hurting him, and i didnt want that.
he thinks i really DO want a boyfriend, just not him....man, that made me feel bad. cuz its not the case.
*sigh*
i know when i AM ready i'm gonna be pissed that i let this one go.
but god! i finally feel like i'm on track to do the right things in life.
i just didnt like that he wanted me to commit...even if it was just sexually...thats more than i could handle.
hes fucking wonderful. a really amazing person. but I JUST CANT.
and it was hurting him, and i didnt want that.
he thinks i really DO want a boyfriend, just not him....man, that made me feel bad. cuz its not the case.
*sigh*
i know when i AM ready i'm gonna be pissed that i let this one go.
but god! i finally feel like i'm on track to do the right things in life.