arrrrrrgh.
i dont have enough money to cover my perscription costs, nor do i want to continue to ask people for money, nor is my job giving me enough to keep taking them.
to solve this issue, i'm taking one pill instead of two bringing the total cost of my daily medication to $20 istead of $25. woo haaa keeping me sane costs so much!
i'm left feeling irate at just about everything...except for sean. i sit around him feeling moapy and angry, but nevertheless he continues to bring smiles to my face....even when i wanna hit something or someone (no, not him).
we wondered the other day when we would get into our first fight...and honestly neither one of us can imagine it. pretty much because whenever we get into some sort of semi-heated conversation one of us says something that cracks both of us up....
he wondered why....i told him its because we are not taking the relationship seriously....so its not like every time i do something he doesnt like, or have an issue with, there is no impending doom loming over the horizon yelling "EVERYTHING HAS TO BE PERFECT BECAUSE YOU ARE GONNA BE TOGETHER FOREVER!" certain things that would have been an issue with someone i dated in the past isnt relative here....i remember getting so pissed at andy early on about his drug habit (see earlier entries) because i didnt want it around our children, AND WE HAD BEEN DATING FOR TWO WEEKS!..jesus. same thing with him and my rare smoking habit....he didnt want to have to watch me die of lung cancer when we were 80....this not so serious stuff makes for not so dramatic or intense relationships...or, er...not relationships...its not that i dont like him enough to call him my boyfriend...i just dont WANT a boyfriend....no matter who it is..
plus i got baggage that doesnt fit in the overhead bin...
to solve this issue, i'm taking one pill instead of two bringing the total cost of my daily medication to $20 istead of $25. woo haaa keeping me sane costs so much!
i'm left feeling irate at just about everything...except for sean. i sit around him feeling moapy and angry, but nevertheless he continues to bring smiles to my face....even when i wanna hit something or someone (no, not him).
we wondered the other day when we would get into our first fight...and honestly neither one of us can imagine it. pretty much because whenever we get into some sort of semi-heated conversation one of us says something that cracks both of us up....
he wondered why....i told him its because we are not taking the relationship seriously....so its not like every time i do something he doesnt like, or have an issue with, there is no impending doom loming over the horizon yelling "EVERYTHING HAS TO BE PERFECT BECAUSE YOU ARE GONNA BE TOGETHER FOREVER!" certain things that would have been an issue with someone i dated in the past isnt relative here....i remember getting so pissed at andy early on about his drug habit (see earlier entries) because i didnt want it around our children, AND WE HAD BEEN DATING FOR TWO WEEKS!..jesus. same thing with him and my rare smoking habit....he didnt want to have to watch me die of lung cancer when we were 80....this not so serious stuff makes for not so dramatic or intense relationships...or, er...not relationships...its not that i dont like him enough to call him my boyfriend...i just dont WANT a boyfriend....no matter who it is..
plus i got baggage that doesnt fit in the overhead bin...