I guess I don't update much because my life is fucking boring.
So, I've finished my first draft of my medieval paper. It turned out to be shit. I am taking the GRE tomorrow, (for those who do not know, it's the exam to get into graduate school). I've taken numerous practice tests and failed every fucking one of them, so i am not so much looking forward to this piece of shit (and since it costs $140 to take I've only got one shot). Next week i will be asking certain profs for letters of recommendation for the grad schools i will be applying to. I don't want to do this, although i doubt it will happen, what if one of them says no. I'll feel like a dick. Besides, I'm really nervous right now about grad school. I don't think I'll be able to get in. And I recently realized, that if i don't get into to u of m, or western, or wherever (those are my best shots) I am fucking screwed. I have no back up plan. I have nowhere to live next year because I'm not taking out another fucking loan. I'm just freaked out. Oh well I guess, I can only do my best. At least I've got goals and ambitions. I could still be living at home with my parents, working at Farmer Jack, making just enough to get drunk on weekends and 'live life'. A Michigan Winter is coming along slowly because I'm so busy. My edits of Joyous Youth are really really helping it I think. I have nothing more to say.