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She loves the feeling of fluid in her lungs & cocks in her heart-Shitty Emogirl.
Loose hearts and Spectacles [fuck.miracles]
I lied when I said I'd write in this every day. And I need to learn to comment on your great entries, my friends. I read them, but then, i don't know what to say...maybe....Or it's the Gilbey's gin i just had.....nasty.
Em!
I LOVE YOU! You're the hot friend, and I'm the weird friend and when we are together we are ON FIRE!
Too bad, she'll never read this.
Anyway:
Got woken up by sweetface, another early game. [sorry things didn't go so well guys... I really am. Wish I could help.] We talked for a while, I love that kid. Then I went back to sleep for a while, woke up around 9 or so and then laid in bed until 10:30 being lazy. Finally I got out of bed, got dressed and dragged down all my dirty clothes and sheets for the laundry. I ate some KeyLime yogurt and took Coop for a walk. Talked to my father and that went reallly well. I was surprised. Lots of family drama back home, its crAzy. Hehe, but funny. Funfun. I got two shirts and some spray.
Anyway, tomorrow... Going to the mall. I want a jean jacket- short and vintage.
Maybe some thrift tomorrow? If I'm lucky.
Funfun.
!!!LOLA GOT A PUPPY! It's a black lab named Duncan! AWWWW! He called me because he had to go to bed because Duncan was sleepin with him. ::SQUEELS:: Just because I can't have a puppy, God sent me Duncan through LoLa. I KNOW IT! AWW PUPPY! Now I can cuddle with LoLa AND a soft puppy named Duncan. I LOVE YOU!
ANYWAY.
We got back from shoppin' and had dinner... then watched part of a movie... then I took an awesome shower. AND NOW - I'm talkin' to my awesome Lil' Dominican.[and it never gets old.] ; ) Great guy. Great Dominican.
Sooo... Hmm. I kept trying to call Eric today, busy line. Man that sucked, I wanted to appoligize.
"Just because Jimmy fucked you doesn't mean he's a pimp." - Eric being a jerk.
Fuck you.
Oh well.
I <3 the other one for calling me to tell me he loves me and goodnight. [smiles]
I'm terribly sorry that I didn't get a hold of you today. I'm sorry for being a bitch and I wanted to tell you that... but your line was always busy. So sorry.
Him - Single now? Odd. I just can't help my satisfaction. [Wish I could say that I hope she broke his heart as much as he broke mine... but I can't.]
I wish I could be resentful, but I'm just not.
But I am happy knowing that he is without... [does that make me a bitch?]
Maybe it's because... I always saw myself making him happy and now that he is unhappy I am so happy with knowing I could. Ya know? I sure don't.
All I know is that reading that today... made me think "Wow, I wasn't even sure WHO he was dating... what does that say about us as friends..."
Then I got sad... I wish I had known.
That's all I wish for now... Is just to be able to look at his name and not feel like I'm being forgotten.
I want to be able to hold his hand and know that I am his friend.
It's all up to him though...
Him and his puppy are stealin' my heart like always.
He's just amazing.
Makes me super happy.
His sleepy and tired voice is sexy... It's so good to hear his voice again.
Makes me tingle.
~Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh Lord, now, there you go with hope again
But I'll be sure your secret is safe with me
Oh, you're so sure I'll be leaving in the end
Treating me like I'm already gone
But I'm not, I will stay where you are always
I will stay, I will stay, I will stay (all of now) ~
I'm such a lonely girl.
fuckme.
hard.
Loose hearts and Spectacles [fuck.miracles]
I lied when I said I'd write in this every day. And I need to learn to comment on your great entries, my friends. I read them, but then, i don't know what to say...maybe....Or it's the Gilbey's gin i just had.....nasty.
Em!
I LOVE YOU! You're the hot friend, and I'm the weird friend and when we are together we are ON FIRE!
Too bad, she'll never read this.
Anyway:
Got woken up by sweetface, another early game. [sorry things didn't go so well guys... I really am. Wish I could help.] We talked for a while, I love that kid. Then I went back to sleep for a while, woke up around 9 or so and then laid in bed until 10:30 being lazy. Finally I got out of bed, got dressed and dragged down all my dirty clothes and sheets for the laundry. I ate some KeyLime yogurt and took Coop for a walk. Talked to my father and that went reallly well. I was surprised. Lots of family drama back home, its crAzy. Hehe, but funny. Funfun. I got two shirts and some spray.
Anyway, tomorrow... Going to the mall. I want a jean jacket- short and vintage.
Maybe some thrift tomorrow? If I'm lucky.
Funfun.
!!!LOLA GOT A PUPPY! It's a black lab named Duncan! AWWWW! He called me because he had to go to bed because Duncan was sleepin with him. ::SQUEELS:: Just because I can't have a puppy, God sent me Duncan through LoLa. I KNOW IT! AWW PUPPY! Now I can cuddle with LoLa AND a soft puppy named Duncan. I LOVE YOU!
ANYWAY.
We got back from shoppin' and had dinner... then watched part of a movie... then I took an awesome shower. AND NOW - I'm talkin' to my awesome Lil' Dominican.[and it never gets old.] ; ) Great guy. Great Dominican.
Sooo... Hmm. I kept trying to call Eric today, busy line. Man that sucked, I wanted to appoligize.
"Just because Jimmy fucked you doesn't mean he's a pimp." - Eric being a jerk.
Fuck you.
Oh well.
I <3 the other one for calling me to tell me he loves me and goodnight. [smiles]
I'm terribly sorry that I didn't get a hold of you today. I'm sorry for being a bitch and I wanted to tell you that... but your line was always busy. So sorry.
Him - Single now? Odd. I just can't help my satisfaction. [Wish I could say that I hope she broke his heart as much as he broke mine... but I can't.]
I wish I could be resentful, but I'm just not.
But I am happy knowing that he is without... [does that make me a bitch?]
Maybe it's because... I always saw myself making him happy and now that he is unhappy I am so happy with knowing I could. Ya know? I sure don't.
All I know is that reading that today... made me think "Wow, I wasn't even sure WHO he was dating... what does that say about us as friends..."
Then I got sad... I wish I had known.
That's all I wish for now... Is just to be able to look at his name and not feel like I'm being forgotten.
I want to be able to hold his hand and know that I am his friend.
It's all up to him though...
Him and his puppy are stealin' my heart like always.
He's just amazing.
Makes me super happy.
His sleepy and tired voice is sexy... It's so good to hear his voice again.
Makes me tingle.
~Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh Lord, now, there you go with hope again
But I'll be sure your secret is safe with me
Oh, you're so sure I'll be leaving in the end
Treating me like I'm already gone
But I'm not, I will stay where you are always
I will stay, I will stay, I will stay (all of now) ~
I'm such a lonely girl.
fuckme.
hard.