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I suppose I'll update while I wait for MJ to get out of class. And because I'm procrastinating until after MOCA. So what's up? Not much. Or a lot much. I could say I haven't seen my roommate in a little over 24 hours. But then again, I don't talk to her either so it's become a norm. I need to figure out how to calculate ramp inclination before I totally screw myself in studio. It'll be fun, but I just want my measurements down so I can just go. Yeah, blahblahblah. It'll get done somehow.
I've had trouble sleeping these past couple of weeks. Sometimes it's because my roommate's lamp shines brighter than the actual room light so I can't actually sleep peacefully when I see light on the wall where I can make my own puppet show to put me to sleep. And other times is because I've grown increasingly used to sleeping at odd hours that I lose more sleep than getting any. Maybe it's because of my current state of mind or situation where I refuse to acknowledge any sort of problem. Or maybe it's because I just can't sleep. That might be a good thing, seeing as though I want to get used to not sleeping as much as I did this past winter break. 'Cos well, I'd rather be used to working on 4-5 hours of sleep than dying without 8. I don't know. Life's been consumed by the major and I can't seem to find what was left of what I call a life, or social atmosphere for that matter. So updating this thing would seem pointless if it's the same ol' same ol'. Unless I actually start using my camera again, then I can put this journal to some good use.
This whole self-reflective thing doesn't really help much. It only helps to remember what you did a year ago, or maybe even yesterday. Soon enough, I'll forget my days and forget other important things that I don't pay much attention to. I know there's a lot more going on in my head than what's actually presented in real life. But I don't talk about it. I'll try and say forget it. So why am I even bringing it up? Maybe to remind myself that life isn't as happy-go-lucky as I want it to be. But, I try to stay as content as possible.
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