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[forties]

i've known you for so long now... not having you as a part of my life feels so weird. these past few weeks without you to talk to have been awful. i don't want to even think about living the rest of my life without you. even if we haven't always got along, you were what kept me going for so long. if it wasn't for you, i wouldn't be here right now. you mean a lot to me. just remember that, okay? and i'm not pushing you away. ever. if you ever feel like you can talk to me again, i'll be here. i'll miss you, so much.
i'll keep watching you, so you better get happy. i wanna see you smile too.