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okay.
so this needs to be written...everytime I drive for over an hour I think about very profound things...
like quitting school, moving to california and becoming a waitress...
because well...
I mean, I could try and become an actress, but I would rather not bring my hopes up too much only to be crushed down....
so waitress it is...
and then when I do become an actress I will be so much more excited and happy, because I wasn't expecting it, ya know?
I feel so trapped again...so held down, like I can't really do what I want and I don't even really know what that is, and this happens every once in a while, and I don't know why. It's as if I get this feeling, like someone is just pushing me down...holding me down and I want to fight back, but I can't..
I mean, I'm still really happy, relatively happy...I like where my life is right now, but I know there could be something so much better....
I don't know.
so this needs to be written...everytime I drive for over an hour I think about very profound things...
like quitting school, moving to california and becoming a waitress...
because well...
I mean, I could try and become an actress, but I would rather not bring my hopes up too much only to be crushed down....
so waitress it is...
and then when I do become an actress I will be so much more excited and happy, because I wasn't expecting it, ya know?
I feel so trapped again...so held down, like I can't really do what I want and I don't even really know what that is, and this happens every once in a while, and I don't know why. It's as if I get this feeling, like someone is just pushing me down...holding me down and I want to fight back, but I can't..
I mean, I'm still really happy, relatively happy...I like where my life is right now, but I know there could be something so much better....
I don't know.