(no subject)
i give into my fears
watched as the tears
streamed down my face and hers
faded to black
all the things i derserve
and all the wishes i wish i could have left in the past
adding ingredients
in this
caldron of bliss
swallowed listerine
to butcher the feeling
alcohol in an open wound
takes a second to dilute
i'm dying to be human again
i'm dying to be human again
and what's more absurd
is how i took a given word
twisted and tangled
the meaning
to something undeserving
i stand observing
capturing the film
as you all disappear
i'm dying to be human again
i'm dying to be human again
an open wound turns to black
from inside seeping outwards
ink pours from it
and onto paper, spelling coward
and roots stem from it
growing from the emotion
my skin slowly fades to ashes
my internal organs pulse two to three times
and then give way....
and what's more, is how i've decided what i'm dying for
it's you... it's you... oh... it's you...
so you...
you would say that...
feels like someone has taken razor blades
to the internal side of my throat
blood rushing in my lungs within every breath,
breathing in and then i choke
each dream is a new coma,
all dementia conversing about space and diplomas
i.. search... for... meaning...
i... don't... believe...
in this....
colour in the veins and pencil in my anxiety
i erase these memories and rewrite the past in it's entirety
i'm taking my shots and becoming more and more immune to your bullshit
just letting you know,
when you're needing me for a reliable shoulder to cry on
this life has become a travesty...
much like your fairy tale endings with a pinch of tragedy
sorry for complaining
but i know how you hate apologies
so i say... so long...