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[forsithia]

these past two days have been great! seeing is that i've spent them with kyle. ahh, he's so great. if all of you didn't know, i was up for a manager position at cockbuster. but i didn't get it. ryan did. the question "why" is still floating around my head. but its all GOOD! apparently i am not a good worker, and i never do things right. everyone at work is two faced. ugh. i feel all weird now. and used. i have a feeling my boss only has me around to sell movie passes. my quote..-fuck being special- indeed. but yeah, i do feel used, and confused. jayme is moving out. hopefully cat, and tyler will stay here. this place is like a home to me, and i really want to stay here. then there's kyle. the most amazing person i have ever come across. so amazing to be with, and just to spend every day with. i like waking up to his cute little face in the morning when he stays here with me. he makes me feel like i am a school girl again. (haha) i never thought i could feel this way about someone so soon. and i want to be with him! no doubts at all. i am usually the type that starts looking for all the bad stuff that guys do, or i would start picking out random shit that i don't like. but with my baby, its like...holy shit. i don't want to look for stuff. i dont ever want anyone else again. this guy means so much to me its insane! i really don't want to scare him away. i would seriously do anything for him. :) i ♥ you kyle.
so much. you're incredible!

cat an i are going to paint the living room a different color. this place is too damn bland. and i wanna spice it up a little...kind of like mexican food. (cat) :)

see ya later guys...♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥