when I feel that i need to talk to livejournal
I feel that I need to write in livejournal. I really never feel the need to but when I dont really feel like talking to a person. I guess this is just one of those outlets to speak my mind.
I have been an emotional roller coaster for 2 weeks now. wondering what keeps tweaking my brain to feel this way. I blame myself most of the time.
but
I realized that outside source is knocking me down.
but eh.
I have to remember to stay focused and do what I need to do to finish school. that is what I want for myself.
I have realized that I know what I want for myself and I make sure to keep tabs. I feel that I put a lot of effort in making sure I am doing what I want to do and trying to have relationship in my life to benefit my existence instead of bring me down. I am having a hard time finding those times and people in my life to do that, and when it does feel complete in that I feel very grateful. I feel that I am picky but at the same time I feel that is not really worth my mental and emotional health to not think that way.
I feel that I am thinking to much about this, but I would be thinking about it if there was not a problem with it.. right?
other news
I finally got my bike tires fixed which I am super stoked about. it makes me truly happy that it cools down enough at night to fly!
I feel more complete that I am getting a job and I might be having 2.
oh yeah. I finally made a connection with a sister that I haven't met before. she is 30. Now I officially have an older sister, which is nice. we went on a walk early this morning, it was great. it is cool that I have an older sister now to talk to. :)
well that means I am an aunt as well. I hope that I will be able to the there nanny. so things are good other then these questions I have. I hope soon I will feel complete again, and move on..
till then.
Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
If youve got someone to blame
You said one love
One life
When its oone need
In the night
One love we get to share it
It leaves you baby if you dont care for it
Did i disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well its too late
Tonight
To drag the past out
Into the light
We're one but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One
Have you come here for forgivness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play jesus
To the lepors in your head
Did i ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing now
Its all i got
We're one but we're not the same
Well we hurt each other and we're doin it again
You said love is a temple
Love the higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
I cant be holdin on
To what youve got
When all youve got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
Youve got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sister
Brothers
One life but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One
oh johnny cash.
I have been an emotional roller coaster for 2 weeks now. wondering what keeps tweaking my brain to feel this way. I blame myself most of the time.
but
I realized that outside source is knocking me down.
but eh.
I have to remember to stay focused and do what I need to do to finish school. that is what I want for myself.
I have realized that I know what I want for myself and I make sure to keep tabs. I feel that I put a lot of effort in making sure I am doing what I want to do and trying to have relationship in my life to benefit my existence instead of bring me down. I am having a hard time finding those times and people in my life to do that, and when it does feel complete in that I feel very grateful. I feel that I am picky but at the same time I feel that is not really worth my mental and emotional health to not think that way.
I feel that I am thinking to much about this, but I would be thinking about it if there was not a problem with it.. right?
other news
I finally got my bike tires fixed which I am super stoked about. it makes me truly happy that it cools down enough at night to fly!
I feel more complete that I am getting a job and I might be having 2.
oh yeah. I finally made a connection with a sister that I haven't met before. she is 30. Now I officially have an older sister, which is nice. we went on a walk early this morning, it was great. it is cool that I have an older sister now to talk to. :)
well that means I am an aunt as well. I hope that I will be able to the there nanny. so things are good other then these questions I have. I hope soon I will feel complete again, and move on..
till then.
Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
If youve got someone to blame
You said one love
One life
When its oone need
In the night
One love we get to share it
It leaves you baby if you dont care for it
Did i disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well its too late
Tonight
To drag the past out
Into the light
We're one but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One
Have you come here for forgivness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play jesus
To the lepors in your head
Did i ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing now
Its all i got
We're one but we're not the same
Well we hurt each other and we're doin it again
You said love is a temple
Love the higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
I cant be holdin on
To what youve got
When all youve got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
Youve got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sister
Brothers
One life but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One
oh johnny cash.