last day

[forsakenforever]

Alas
my last day home has come again
for the 3rd time
it was true.
each time it gets harder
and harder.
i dont really know what to say
i'm actually speachless
to say the least.
the friends i saw made my days
the friends i didnt see, well thats a whole other story
i want to tell every one certain things.
i dont think i can
or ever will.
i got a tattoo
thats kinda exciting.
i want to keep skateboarding in my life
no matter how hard it gets.
im scared of the future
i'm not really looking forward to not seeing people for awhile
and i dont want to do anything stupid

actions and reactions
things can go wright or wrong
but things can fall in the middle
depression isnt what id call it
its more like a... self loathing
i fall into it every time i leave
its only for that day
24 hours of it
but each hour feels like an eternity.
i think i'll print up all this once i get back home
kinda like a delay written diary
oOo. a diary sounds good.
might pick up on that one
oh well
to everyone i saw.
thank you
to thoes of you i ddnt
lets make time for wheni get back
love always Jon