A most daring plan.
I've decided that since I was asleep on and off between job applications and headaches yesterday, and that I can't seem to get to bed at a decent hour that I shall not sleep tonight. This is a most... daring plan, as it will take a lot of stimuli to keep me up and going throughout today so that I might actually get to bed at a good hour and thus arise early and refreshed the next day. I can see there be a large margin of error here, but I'm going to try my best to keep busy and moving until I can break down and be assured I will wake up in a good time range and say not 3am.
The job hunt still goes poorly, and tomorrow/today I have a million pounds of laundry to get done so that I will have something to wear. I'm tearing my freaking hair out, and I have no one to blame but myself for getting a later start than I should have on the hunt. It certainly doesn't help that when my debit card went missing some funds got swiped from my account. So, that hurt a bit as well. I was spending a lot of my time trying to overcome my rampant depression. I know that sounds like a line, but honestly it was really bad there for a while. It's not the tops now, but it's far more manageable than it was before. I'm trying to rediscover who I am, but amidst all this turmoil in the house with half of the people not having jobs and the actual act of securing a new job I'm doing good not to have a nervous breakdown and huddle in a fetal position on my floor.
Everything is shooting off in random directions and I don't have the slightest clue what the future holds. I just wonder if I can hold it together or if everything comes crashing down. I guess we will have to wait and see.
The job hunt still goes poorly, and tomorrow/today I have a million pounds of laundry to get done so that I will have something to wear. I'm tearing my freaking hair out, and I have no one to blame but myself for getting a later start than I should have on the hunt. It certainly doesn't help that when my debit card went missing some funds got swiped from my account. So, that hurt a bit as well. I was spending a lot of my time trying to overcome my rampant depression. I know that sounds like a line, but honestly it was really bad there for a while. It's not the tops now, but it's far more manageable than it was before. I'm trying to rediscover who I am, but amidst all this turmoil in the house with half of the people not having jobs and the actual act of securing a new job I'm doing good not to have a nervous breakdown and huddle in a fetal position on my floor.
Everything is shooting off in random directions and I don't have the slightest clue what the future holds. I just wonder if I can hold it together or if everything comes crashing down. I guess we will have to wait and see.