Leave me alone.
Today wasn't that bad. My parents had that party but I was mostly hanging out with Cindy and Wendy (yep, they're sisters with 4 years difference) while their brother Johny just sat with us and all. Meh. I missed Yoel so much! I was like all looking at the cell every minute, if not second, to see if he texted me or not. XD YES I AM CRAZY FOR HIM! <.< We were like playing with the karaoke thing, choosing songs but I knew nothing what the Chinese characters said or what they meant. Meh. I don't really care.. Not important to me. But I do like this song by Jacky Cheung? that is sooo like how I feel for Yoel. Well.. at least I think it is. From what Cindy told me what the song was about and what the title meant. "I love you more everyday." It's probably singing about unrequited love but oh well. I'll use it to my advantage and use some parts for how I feel for him. Cindy will get me the song and hopefully the translations to the lyrics of the song later. So..yeah. ^^ And Cindy knows somewhat about him. <.< YEP! I showed a text and all.. and I think she knew something was up even before I told her about him, or showed one of his text, because I asked her, "do you believe there's someone for everyone that the someone will complete that person's heart and soul?" and stuff.. and she said that although she didn't find that someone herself, that she thinks it's possible. And I believe I said I did, but I dunno if she heard me or not. Well, whatever. I miss him a lot. YES! I'm totally crazy for him.. All I need and want in this world is him!
But I suppose today wasn't too bad.. Heh. ^^
That was what I wrote in my GreatestJournal. Yeah.. I wrote my resolution just today but.. just leave me alone. ~_~ I don't feel so well anymore.. I dunno what's wrong with me! I hate myself.. I might actually leave the computer and internet on the whole night.. I don't like anything anymore.. No, incorrect. I just want him.. I need him damnit. I'm scared of what my mom will say or do when I tell her I'm moving there. I hope I have enough courage to go with my decision, and I really hope I will get accepted to the university he's transferring too. I really hope so. I suppose I can pray.. But prayers aren't always the thing.
Gah, I feel horrible. ~_~ I feel like crying again....
But I suppose today wasn't too bad.. Heh. ^^
That was what I wrote in my GreatestJournal. Yeah.. I wrote my resolution just today but.. just leave me alone. ~_~ I don't feel so well anymore.. I dunno what's wrong with me! I hate myself.. I might actually leave the computer and internet on the whole night.. I don't like anything anymore.. No, incorrect. I just want him.. I need him damnit. I'm scared of what my mom will say or do when I tell her I'm moving there. I hope I have enough courage to go with my decision, and I really hope I will get accepted to the university he's transferring too. I really hope so. I suppose I can pray.. But prayers aren't always the thing.
Gah, I feel horrible. ~_~ I feel like crying again....