Whew!!!
Finally I'm almost done with training at work. Tomorrow is my last day and then I'm on my own. I'm really happy about that and kinda scared all at the same time. I know that after a while I will know everything, but at first it's alot of info. I know that I will be good though cause I'm good at everything that I try. I know that sounds cocky, but I know how I have done at things in the past. I love that job too much to let myself fail anyway. I love going to work everyday and I haven't been able to say that for a long time. I really love that everyone there cares about each other and are all friends. I think that I am learning who I'm going to be friends with too and who I can trust. I really like the people that sit around me. Staci and I are becoming pretty good friends too. I'm so glad she let me play ball with them. I met her wife Sunday and even though its not what I pictured she would be, she is really nice and her and Staci fit together good. I can tell that they are really happy and that gives me hope that I will be one day too. I really like being around couples, but at the same time it's hard cause I really want to be happy too. I know that is will happen for me one day I just have to be patient. I'm starting to think about court next week and I'm trying to remain calm. I know that I will just get another court date and this one really doesn't mean that much but I think it just scares me cause its getting closer. I really hope that the court looks at the fact that I haven't ever been in trouble and that I paid the money back 3 days later. I really don't think that I will get any time out of this but if I do then I just have to except it and more forward in life. I know that my family would stick with me and I just hope that my friends would do the same. I really will need alot of support in this. I really think that I will be ok, but at the same time nothing is for sure when you are dealing with the fucked up system. Anyway I'm looking forward to going to Michagan with my Chop, Rachel and Ryan. I miss Jeff and Sandy and I can't wait to see her with baby. I really pray that all is well witt the baby, they are went through hell trying to have a baby and she is paying the price, she has to take a shot everyday, the whole 9 months, but like I tell her, it will be worth it to hold that little life. I have known Jeff for so long that whenever I'm at his house I feel right at home and I love it. He has a kick ass house anyway. I'm also glad that we are taking Dad, I don't want to leave him alone that weekend. The 21st is his and Mom's annv. and I don't want him to be sitting around thinking about it. I know that Jeff and Sandy want to see him too. Anyway this weekend I have nothing planned which is kinda nice, cause the last two I have been so busy that I barley remember them. I have to do some Christmas shopping for the whole 3 people that I'm able to buy for this year. Money is tight, but I'll figure it out, I always do. I'm looking forward to b-ball Sunday even though I sucked last week, I know that it will come back to me. Alright well this said a whole lot of nothing so I'm ending it. Until next time.......