I feel like shit!!!
I hate not feeling like myself. Being sick sucks in everyway. I really needed to be at work this week, seeing that I just made level one, I really needed to get at it this month. I know a day and half doesn't seem like that big of a deal, esp at the begining of the month, but when you work my type of postion, everyday counts. It is always easier to reach your goals before the last day of the month, I had to find that out the hard way last month. Anyway I hope to feel better tomorrow, cause I need to get back to work in the right mindset, it is so easy to say fuck it and not get on the phone when you can't really breathe to have a conversation anyway. The only thing that is ok about me being sick, is that I have someone who takes good care of me. I have missed being taken care of and B does a awesome job at it. When I'm sick I a huge baby and she doesn't seem to mind. She came over lastnight when she got off of work and made me dinner, she is awesome. I just love spending time with her, at work, after work, going out, watching movies, having dinner, just hanging out, and the best sleeping next to her! I love having her to cuddle up to when we get to stay together. I love all parts of out relationship, we have already had a couple of bumps in the road, but we are commited to working through them instead of ignoring them like alot of new couples tend to do, we take them on and talk through them. We are both sick of getting in relationships and not having them work out. There is still so much that we have to learn about each other, but I know that we both want to make a good life for ourselves, with or without each other and that makes me happy. I want to be with someone who is their own person and doesn't always need someone to lean on, but knows that I am here if they need anything. I have had someone so dependent on me that she forgot who she was and I don't ever want that again, cause then you start to question if they want to be with you or if they are afaid to be without you. I always want my wife to WANT to be with me, always a concious thought. I think the thing that I love the most about this wonderful new person is how honest she is, even when I don't want to hear things, she tells me anyway and I love that I know that I can trust her already, do I still have my moments, of course this is too new not to, but when I really stop and think I know she isn't going to do anything that she wouldn't be able to tell me. I love that I have been able to be honest with her too, I know she doens't take everything to well, but she deals with them and I love her for loving me and my ways. She is one of the most giving people that I have ever meant, and I know she has had people take advantage of that in her and I'm happy to know that she is with me now cause I won't. She deserves the world and I plan on giving her as much of that as I can. Well speak of the devil, she is on her way so I'm going to end this now. I love you B!!!!!! Until next time......oh yeah welcome back to my life T, I missed your friendship and I hope to be friends for a long time. I hope R is doing ok for you too.