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sooooo i'm in this very strange in between phase which i've never really been in before
it's very fascinating
usually i am the type of girl who focuses on one person
i don't do anything until i've moved on and when i am with someone or have a crush on them i have only eyes and thoughts about them
and YET here i am in the in between
simultanesouly trying to let go of Chad while starting to date Dave
I facebook stalk one and then the other
I think about one for awhile and then the other
It is so strange
I don't think I love Chad anymore, i mean a part of me always will of course, but not in the same way, and yet the abrupt end to everything still rubs me the wrong way and saddens me. I think it derives mostly from the circumstances of everything rather than him himself.
And i am liking Dave now, thinking about him more, smiling when he texts/calls/facebook chats, wanting to go hang out when i have so much work to do.
its like a tag in tag out situation, as Chad begins to fade, Dave begins to brighten
i really really really don't want to be a girl that jumps fromm guy to guy, relationship to relationship, and i told Dave i was not looking for anything but casual
everynight when my roomate asks about him and i'm like "yea he texts me everyday" or "we went out to dinner again and he won't let me pay" or "he always asks how my day is" she respond with "you guys are dating" and i always deny deny deny with a big "no, no, no, no" but the other night when i asked him how his day was and he responded "honestly, its been rough, a friend from highschool died in a car crash today" i immediately went over to his place, all his housematre know me and say hi, and we just hung and talked and statements like "next time we do this and this, or when we go to this and this" were being droped it hit me......when i got back at around 2am i opened the door and the first thing i said to my roomate was "we're totally dating"
how the hell did that happen?
it's very fascinating
usually i am the type of girl who focuses on one person
i don't do anything until i've moved on and when i am with someone or have a crush on them i have only eyes and thoughts about them
and YET here i am in the in between
simultanesouly trying to let go of Chad while starting to date Dave
I facebook stalk one and then the other
I think about one for awhile and then the other
It is so strange
I don't think I love Chad anymore, i mean a part of me always will of course, but not in the same way, and yet the abrupt end to everything still rubs me the wrong way and saddens me. I think it derives mostly from the circumstances of everything rather than him himself.
And i am liking Dave now, thinking about him more, smiling when he texts/calls/facebook chats, wanting to go hang out when i have so much work to do.
its like a tag in tag out situation, as Chad begins to fade, Dave begins to brighten
i really really really don't want to be a girl that jumps fromm guy to guy, relationship to relationship, and i told Dave i was not looking for anything but casual
everynight when my roomate asks about him and i'm like "yea he texts me everyday" or "we went out to dinner again and he won't let me pay" or "he always asks how my day is" she respond with "you guys are dating" and i always deny deny deny with a big "no, no, no, no" but the other night when i asked him how his day was and he responded "honestly, its been rough, a friend from highschool died in a car crash today" i immediately went over to his place, all his housematre know me and say hi, and we just hung and talked and statements like "next time we do this and this, or when we go to this and this" were being droped it hit me......when i got back at around 2am i opened the door and the first thing i said to my roomate was "we're totally dating"
how the hell did that happen?