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[formyed]

I'm so intrigued by this!

Please comment with something anonymously -  comment, question, or whatever. Freedom reigns! And I *will* respond. 
Pleeeeeeease.
I don't even know how to log/trace IP addresses, so no worries there!!

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[formyed]

Good question!

No, I don't get jealous of people who are struggling. Perhaps it's because I feel like I'm struggling so much myself; I don't want more. Perhaps it's because I've been much sicker than I am now, and I don't want that. Don't get me wrong. I want very, very badly to be back at my low weight. But, I don't want everything that goes with it, and seeing people on here go through that reminds me that I don't want it. Plus, I want to be a helpful and productive therapist and women's studies prof someday, and an active eating disorder is not compatible with that. I do sometimes (okay, often) get jealous of people who are able to access a higher level of care, because I feel like I do really need a higher level, but I can't get it because of insurance issues. I also get very jealous of people who have a lower set point than me because for me, full recovery may very well mean being technically "overweight."

No, I don't think that people are "better" than me in terms of dealing with their eating disorder. I think that many of us are in very different places, none of which are inherently better or worse. If I do get jealous, though, it's usually that I'm jealous of people who are able to be further in recovery and living lives where the e.d. takes up less space!