Tired as usual
I know I haven't updated in ages but apart from anything else Mairi is the only person who ever reads this and she can't read it because the school have blocked live journal. Then I realised Mairi barely reads my journal anyway so the chances of her reading more than the most recent entries when she gets access to the site are slim to none, which means no one I know will be reading this, which is in a lot of cases a good thing.
Drama, drama, drama! Basically Dawn's mum has said she might be able to take her and some friends to a James Blunt concert in June and so she asked Lucy, Mairi, Millie and me if we wanted to come, thinking that Dasha and Sheree didn't like James Blunt. Dasha and Sheree had been feeling a bit left out recently, and that Dawn never had time for them anymore, and was always talking to Millie, and they do actually like James Blunt so they were even more annoyed at Dawn than they already were. When they discussed this it turned out that Josephine and Mairi had also noticed this and felt the same. Therefore at lunch on Tuesday Sheree confronted Dawn and told her how people felt and Dawn felt very singled out, and Millie agreed that it wasn't fair that Dawn was being singled out. Lucy also felt that Dasha, Sheree and Mairi were being left out by Dawn but was trying to solve the problem rather than taking sides. I myself wanted to see the whole argument and find out how everybody felt before trying to solve the problem, I still have rather a garbled version of events and have probably got some of the details wrong.
After Sheree's failed attempt, the task fell to Lucy and me to talk to Dawn and having time to kill as usual until my mum finished work I walked out with her and said I'd talk to her on msn when I got home. Then on my way to the science labs I met Dawn and Millie again coming up the hill on the way to Millie's car, so I walked with Dawn for a bit. She told me about how Sheree had confronted her and asked me whether I was part of the 'conspiracy' I asked her what conspiracy and Dawn told me and asked me to be honest. Unfortunately for me I do not feel comfortable lying to my friends and usually end up laughing my face off which is why Dawn always tells me I am an incredibly bad liar, I really need to learn to lie better...
Not that lying is a good thing but it would be a useful skill. So I told her that I wasn't and I can't remember exactly what was said, but I do remember Dawn telling me that one of the things she has learned is that friends come and go. I am maybe just too much of a sentimental sap but I can't believe that you shouldn't try to keep friendships. She said that she had seen this coming for a while and just didn't expect it to be for another few years.
I didn't notice anything, I've been too wrapped up with my own troubles, and I'm not in their form class so I didn't really notice things I might've in Upper four. The really strange thing is, this year I feel that I'm better friends with Lucy and Dawn than I have been in years, are the only times I feel like I'm not invisible always going to be when people fall out? I sincerely hope not. I think I'm actually getting along with Dasha and Sheree better than I ever have, though I could easily be wrong. After saying goodbye to Dawn I then walked to the science labs and realised that I had forgotten about science club. So I walked down the hill and back up again to help myself think no doubt confusing Miss Emslie who I must've passed about three times, don't ask me how.
When I finally managed to get onto the computer after doing my homework and practice and being thoroughly absorde in "The Guy Next Door" Lucy wasn't online so I rang her. It turned out Malcolm had told her to go off the computer because he was watching a french film and "typing distracted him" so she could not talk on msn or watch big brother as Malcolm also had the laptop and there wasn't much chance of him letting Lucy use it. I asked her to try and come online if she was still awake and the film finished before 2330.
So I read the e-mails that had built up over the past few days and read a bit of my book, when Dawn came online.
I talked to her for a long time, and she was so cold and just so passive, it seemed like she didn't care and was just going to let things run their course, which greatly subdued me. The next day I talked to Lucy in the morning and it seemed that no one wanted to bring up the problem, then I had to go to Chemistry where there wasn't exactly much time to talk as the lesson basically consisted of a lot of demonstrations and quickly marking sheets. At break I began asking each person in turn whether they had any problems with Dawn or me or anyone else. After a while thank goodness they opened up and Dasha and Sheree started talking to Dawn about what they were annoyed at which sadly attracted the attention of a lot of their class who were in the room who didn't have much idea what they were talking about. Then the bell interupted things and we decided we'd have to discuss it at lunch. In Maths to my knowledge as I was sitting next to Indigo and did get some work done for a change although I successfully mucked up the cosine rule for finding a side by leaving out the Cos at the end. In computing the usual happened most of our half of the class were greatly confused by the mail merge.
At lunch again no one wanted to bring up the subject and there wasn't enough room at any of the tables for all of us, so Dasha and Sheree sat with Joanna and some other people and Dawn, Mairi, Millie and Lucy sat at another table while I sat on one of the stools at the worktop thingy. We needed to spend more time together but Dawn has really busy weekends as do the rest of us, and none of us were free at the right times during the week. My suggestion that we all join Badminton club was immediately turned down by Lucy who said a double period per week was enough and didn't really seem to get the point. Then I had to go to ccf where they made us do press-ups and drill and then I got reallu bored when Saskia taught everyone section battle drills and I was like the only one in the room apart from Saskia who had actually been in the lesson. Ballet was good event though I made a complete fool of myself as usual when we did posez turns and pirrouttes. When I got home I talked to Dawn on msn after doing my homework and she increasingly chipperly told me that she had just talked with William and he had given her what really was the most obvious solution which she hadn't realised before. Talk to Millie and tell her that she can't talk with her as much as she used to and stuff and not listen to music at breaks and stuff and talk to us instead.
It seems the problem is solved, however at break she listened to music and at lunch she just talked to Marcelina the whole time and didn't join in our conversation. Hopefully the problem is solved, Sheree and Dasha I think are just going to wait and see what happens.
I got to go home because mum was finishing early today and was almost late for jazz and tap. I got really confused by the dances and Miss Scott said that if we want we can go to a tuesday class at 500 to help us as they are doing the same dance. I really should got to sleep now.ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Drama, drama, drama! Basically Dawn's mum has said she might be able to take her and some friends to a James Blunt concert in June and so she asked Lucy, Mairi, Millie and me if we wanted to come, thinking that Dasha and Sheree didn't like James Blunt. Dasha and Sheree had been feeling a bit left out recently, and that Dawn never had time for them anymore, and was always talking to Millie, and they do actually like James Blunt so they were even more annoyed at Dawn than they already were. When they discussed this it turned out that Josephine and Mairi had also noticed this and felt the same. Therefore at lunch on Tuesday Sheree confronted Dawn and told her how people felt and Dawn felt very singled out, and Millie agreed that it wasn't fair that Dawn was being singled out. Lucy also felt that Dasha, Sheree and Mairi were being left out by Dawn but was trying to solve the problem rather than taking sides. I myself wanted to see the whole argument and find out how everybody felt before trying to solve the problem, I still have rather a garbled version of events and have probably got some of the details wrong.
After Sheree's failed attempt, the task fell to Lucy and me to talk to Dawn and having time to kill as usual until my mum finished work I walked out with her and said I'd talk to her on msn when I got home. Then on my way to the science labs I met Dawn and Millie again coming up the hill on the way to Millie's car, so I walked with Dawn for a bit. She told me about how Sheree had confronted her and asked me whether I was part of the 'conspiracy' I asked her what conspiracy and Dawn told me and asked me to be honest. Unfortunately for me I do not feel comfortable lying to my friends and usually end up laughing my face off which is why Dawn always tells me I am an incredibly bad liar, I really need to learn to lie better...
Not that lying is a good thing but it would be a useful skill. So I told her that I wasn't and I can't remember exactly what was said, but I do remember Dawn telling me that one of the things she has learned is that friends come and go. I am maybe just too much of a sentimental sap but I can't believe that you shouldn't try to keep friendships. She said that she had seen this coming for a while and just didn't expect it to be for another few years.
I didn't notice anything, I've been too wrapped up with my own troubles, and I'm not in their form class so I didn't really notice things I might've in Upper four. The really strange thing is, this year I feel that I'm better friends with Lucy and Dawn than I have been in years, are the only times I feel like I'm not invisible always going to be when people fall out? I sincerely hope not. I think I'm actually getting along with Dasha and Sheree better than I ever have, though I could easily be wrong. After saying goodbye to Dawn I then walked to the science labs and realised that I had forgotten about science club. So I walked down the hill and back up again to help myself think no doubt confusing Miss Emslie who I must've passed about three times, don't ask me how.
When I finally managed to get onto the computer after doing my homework and practice and being thoroughly absorde in "The Guy Next Door" Lucy wasn't online so I rang her. It turned out Malcolm had told her to go off the computer because he was watching a french film and "typing distracted him" so she could not talk on msn or watch big brother as Malcolm also had the laptop and there wasn't much chance of him letting Lucy use it. I asked her to try and come online if she was still awake and the film finished before 2330.
So I read the e-mails that had built up over the past few days and read a bit of my book, when Dawn came online.
I talked to her for a long time, and she was so cold and just so passive, it seemed like she didn't care and was just going to let things run their course, which greatly subdued me. The next day I talked to Lucy in the morning and it seemed that no one wanted to bring up the problem, then I had to go to Chemistry where there wasn't exactly much time to talk as the lesson basically consisted of a lot of demonstrations and quickly marking sheets. At break I began asking each person in turn whether they had any problems with Dawn or me or anyone else. After a while thank goodness they opened up and Dasha and Sheree started talking to Dawn about what they were annoyed at which sadly attracted the attention of a lot of their class who were in the room who didn't have much idea what they were talking about. Then the bell interupted things and we decided we'd have to discuss it at lunch. In Maths to my knowledge as I was sitting next to Indigo and did get some work done for a change although I successfully mucked up the cosine rule for finding a side by leaving out the Cos at the end. In computing the usual happened most of our half of the class were greatly confused by the mail merge.
At lunch again no one wanted to bring up the subject and there wasn't enough room at any of the tables for all of us, so Dasha and Sheree sat with Joanna and some other people and Dawn, Mairi, Millie and Lucy sat at another table while I sat on one of the stools at the worktop thingy. We needed to spend more time together but Dawn has really busy weekends as do the rest of us, and none of us were free at the right times during the week. My suggestion that we all join Badminton club was immediately turned down by Lucy who said a double period per week was enough and didn't really seem to get the point. Then I had to go to ccf where they made us do press-ups and drill and then I got reallu bored when Saskia taught everyone section battle drills and I was like the only one in the room apart from Saskia who had actually been in the lesson. Ballet was good event though I made a complete fool of myself as usual when we did posez turns and pirrouttes. When I got home I talked to Dawn on msn after doing my homework and she increasingly chipperly told me that she had just talked with William and he had given her what really was the most obvious solution which she hadn't realised before. Talk to Millie and tell her that she can't talk with her as much as she used to and stuff and not listen to music at breaks and stuff and talk to us instead.
It seems the problem is solved, however at break she listened to music and at lunch she just talked to Marcelina the whole time and didn't join in our conversation. Hopefully the problem is solved, Sheree and Dasha I think are just going to wait and see what happens.
I got to go home because mum was finishing early today and was almost late for jazz and tap. I got really confused by the dances and Miss Scott said that if we want we can go to a tuesday class at 500 to help us as they are doing the same dance. I really should got to sleep now.ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ