it's time to slice her heart from your sleeve

[formerebreath]

i wish everything was as easy as a movie, then everything would be so perfect and everything would fall into place in precision. but i would only be living in a fallacy. which i have been in every night for hours and hours just thinking of the future... last year of highschool so its coming down on me. and i guess this is why i havnt been sleeping latly, i know i need to relax but my mind is too constant. i really want a relationship, i've been thinking about that too but i know ill never find someone. pathetic. i've been trying to prepare myself for this year: studying for the sats, looking at colleges to see my chances, and telling myself im going to change my ways and try my actual best this year. i hope everything goes well. and i hope im ready for everything that happens, good or bad.

i wish things where different.