the sedatives tell you everything is alright
Everything is going miserable, and stressing which all just kills my mood and makes me pissed off or sad. I hate it. It all started with the sops telling us to stop playing last week, then giving Sean a ticket, then Sean getting pissed and talking to the neighbors , resulting in a gay neighbor bring something old up tell his mom bf, in which they got in an argument and Sean running away from home, all starting with us playing… our moto should be Within Divida “We Ruin Families.” but Sean is back home and all is settled there, but we have nowhere to practice now. I have looked for hours 3 days straight for a storage space to rent out but either they don’t let bands play or they are all out of spots. It makes me get a headache and a wanting to kill myself. So everything seems so hopeless when things where going up. Fuck you god. So my hunt will go on trying to find somewhere, but I just don’t know. Now we might not even have a pa system… so fucking great even another big problem on top of another. Awesome. Also tonight when I saw one of my friends in love (I’m so happy for him), I just want to feel that way. Smiling and just so happy to have someone. I wish I could have it. I just want someone to be with, to talk too about everything, just to think of them would make me smile. Blah I’m getting to stupid about this. I’m stopping this.